HaPpy ALwAys

2010-09-01T15:32:00.007+08:00

大家好！

哇，当我打开我的部落格时，发现差不多一年没在这儿哈拉了。

我已经换了一个我从来没想过的行业，卖‘润滑油’是给工厂使用的，可别想歪了，呵呵！！！
面对的虽然只是一个上司，但我本身给自己的压力，比起以前的工作是仟倍的，好大的挑战，也是一个给我开阔视野的力量。

前途无法当，但力量仟倍重。
只好安慰自己加油加油咯！

我和我男友一起已有差不多十个月了，时间好快哦！
从一个陌生的我们到现在相爱的我们，真的经历了很多，很多。不容易，但是一个很高深的知识。值得去体验，呵呵！！

为什么我那么说呢？

因为了解一个人并不是简单的事，而且是一个男人，啊哈哈！！！
但我爱他，因为他给的不单只是疼爱和关心，是在男女朋友间最需要的信任和支持。

祝福天下有情人终成眷属，
也祝福自己能和爱人终成眷属。呵呵！！

---分享些照片给你们看看---

初相熟的我们

渐渐相爱的得我们

到相亲相爱的我们

以上就是我在这一年的生活了，呵呵！！

简单但明确的讲述，enjoy!!!

2009-10-13T10:33:00.003+08:00

今天

我从日本回来了，想写部落格但很懒，所以趁现在有时间就写咯
我好爱日本，爱他们的环境，爱他们的纪律，爱他们的耐性，最爱他们的亲子关系
真的好希望有机会能在那里多留几个时间，让自己变得有气质，有文化，有耐性，有纪律，有品位:-)

昨天看了一遍短篇，他让我感到情绪沉重，可能我听到了一些消息吧！
他有了爱人，有了一个比我还优秀的爱人
在我听到的刹那间，我心里只说祝福他，但其实是有点伤的，
但又如何呢？那已成为过去了吧！
衷心的祝福 :-)
虽然认识他只有很短的时间，但他教了我“乐观”这两个开心的字眼:-)

我是时候要寻找我的快乐了,一个人的快乐，爱自己，变漂亮
再来就是寻找我真真的幸福，因为有位医师告诉我说，我的桃花来了哦!
期待

上帝知道我何时做好准备的，祂让我改观，祂让我看到，祂让我知道了
我要出发咯！

2009-09-22T14:10:00.002+08:00

有时候

有时候，我对自己所做的一切感到后悔
有时候，我却觉得如果我不做可能会更后悔

有时候，我想得很仔细
有时候，我却跟着我的感觉走

有时候，我很理性
有时候，我却很感性

有时候，我对自己充满自信
有时候，我却死在我的自卑里

很多的有时候，让我错过了不少的精彩和机会
很希望有时候，成功的几率会高过所有

但那有时候是否在我生活中就缺少了
奈何？
无奈。

2009-08-03T14:32:00.003+08:00

新的一个月

这里有好多的updates

第一：我达到我的愿望了，这九月就可以飞去日本旅游啦！
第二：我好享受现在的生活，虽然多的是一个人的生活，但很是快乐的
第三：我才从越南回来，可真的如一块碳了，黑的...

今年是一个很特别的年，好多人告诉我会犯太岁，但我并不觉得呢！！
虽然也有很多不开心的事发生，但终究过去了。
我一定要以快乐为先，让自己过得比往年更幸福，快乐

幸福和快乐是要自己给的，尤其在单身时，呵呵！

努力创造着一个人的快乐
加油！

2009-06-27T16:15:00.002+08:00

久违了

好久没来我的部落格哈拉啦！

这三个星期呢
我的时间都在追sales和entertainment

日至过得很紧凑的
很是丰富的，呵呵！

昨天到顾客的公司，尽然让我遇到他的朋友
一个从来没想过会发生的事，因为据我所知，他是在我家乡工作的
但不知为何心情好起来，
可能我觉得就算我和他不再在一起了，我的生活还是那么美好吧
尽然给他朋友看到我好的一面，
是美好的！呵呵！

晚上，不怎么想出去，
但最后还是出了，到酒吧喝酒
遇到同事们，大家就完了起来

不错的一天，但我的朋友又像回到从前
但还是快乐的一天啦！

但另一方面我很担心，我的业绩小星期二就截止了，
我还欠蛮大的数目呢！
好害怕！

我有机会吗？

2009-06-09T22:06:00.003+08:00

人缘

今天和一位同事吃饭看戏
他在我公司并不怎么受欢迎

和他谈天
有时我觉得，我也不很喜欢他

但我觉得一个人好好的，没得罪人
却让人不觉得好感，是很悲哀的！
可能他说话的态度让人感觉不舒服吧！
可能他的外表让人看了很不顺眼吧！
但有时我觉得，这并不是他的错吧！

和他谈天，对啦！他说话的语气并不好，神情很怪的，就是让人不舒服
但他得人品不坏啊！

为什么呢？

我并不是一个受欢迎的人
也不是一个惹人讨厌的人

但我觉得每一个人都有缺点
试着给他空间去改变
有时背后中伤人，当事者会很可怜的
如果无法接受，就别理他吧！
我觉得，如果这个人和你有缘分，不妨让他知道
以免他的伤害更重呢？

我相信上帝的创造是很合理的
为什么人就是爱中伤他人呢？
当我们在中伤一个人的不好时，必须想象自己是不是好的完美？
可以说说但别让对方变成一个人
我真的觉得会孤单啊！

2009-06-01T19:23:00.003+08:00

夜晚.风筝

星期六，和一班朋友到夜店疯狂
挺不错的一天，不过发生了一些些的小插曲
一位第一天来上班的小妹把酒个捣乱了
还得我们在要散场前的一个小时才感觉快乐的狂欢
但最终还是快乐结束啦！

夜间，另一个他给我传了封简讯
当我发现时已经过了30分钟，
当天就乖乖的啦，啊哈哈！

第二天，和朋友的朋友到Selayang 放风筝
哈哈，目的是要为我影射一些苗条的照片的
但，天不作美，下雨了，没阳光，无法影咯！
过后只好到广场逛逛啦，也在那里拍了些照片
希望效果会好好啦！

所以说呢，这星期可是丰富的啦
让我解了一些的压力和无聊
呵呵！

2009-05-30T14:57:00.002+08:00

嗯！

今天是个轻松的星期六
没事做，看看电视剧

感觉无聊
就把我刚买的壁纸粘上了
我房间又增加了一个新成员啦
哈哈！

给你们看看他的样貌吧！
可是帅的呢，别吓坏咯！
啊哈哈！

2009-05-25T22:38:00.003+08:00

五月二十五日

今天，过得蛮愉快的，
但到了晚上，情绪开始变动了
跌到谷底，可能他是其中的因素吧：-（

今天是他的生日
我很有礼貌的给他传了祝语
他也很礼貌的给我道谢

我以为只是一句谢
但他给了两封简讯，我知道他是一个很重感情的人
他的第二封时说，“记得哦！感动！谢！

看了，觉得他很可爱，很笨笨的感觉
好心的回了他，“is not diff to rmbr,nvr celebrate?"
我是抱着他不会回简讯的事实了
果真他没回，其实并不感觉如何
因为已经知道答案啦！

但到了晚上，心情很不由自主的低落，感觉酸酸，涩涩，苦苦的。叹!很难控制：-（
我不敢和任何人提及，因为最终我还是得自己解决

心情并不是很好，但会让自己平复的

看了一些电视剧，感觉其实爱人和朋友的拥抱真的真的是不同的
好期待下一个他来给我拥抱呢！
何时呢？
呵呵！

稍微的想念（苦涩的）

2009-05-24T22:40:00.004+08:00

嗨！

哇！有段时间没写了，不行，要锻炼每天写当天发生的事了...呵呵！！
今天是星期天，才从马六甲回来

在三个月前的我呢，是满期待今天的来临的
但到了今天并不了：-（
明天是他的生日，都一直在想要不要给他传简讯
问了些朋友，他们都说OK，就表现我的大方

但这对我来说并不是容易的：-（
如果我一直问他人如此的问题，他们一定说我还没放下
但我是有放下啦，但有时小小的波折又让我想起了。我想这不是我的错吧！
人有感情的，说放就放麽？
对我来说有点难咯！
唉！叹！

我多希望能和他庆祝呢！
这是在3个月前的我想啦！
现在想祝福他，但心里乱糟糟的
我知道我多余了，但我无法控制啊！

祝你生日快乐，stay healthy and happy!

这句话是在我的脑海里有两天了
该发吗？
先在这里祝福吧！

2009-05-13T22:34:00.003+08:00

不同的我

我感觉我有变了
从那一个伤心没大志负面想法的我
到现在一个会把一切事情看淡面对，保持正面，有些大志的我

好想谢的人是他。
因为我看到他的乐观快乐
从没看过他的不开心和烦恼
虽然我们的缘分只有那几星期，我永远记得：-）

他教了我一课
我很感谢他

感谢上帝把他派给我
让我有动力去去面对该面对的
赏识做些小小的突破

谢谢你的出现：-）
想念你(甜甜的）

2009-05-10T22:11:00.003+08:00

有一个星期天了！

日子过的超快的
天气‘四八’热的
快要发颠啦
今天吃了Pizza，肥死了
减肥减肥，越减越肥
糟糕！

星期五，一个我很喜欢的朋友
他尽然伤了我的心，
但不要紧，因为如果她觉得错，
她会不好意思的和我说回话先
她做了，我也原谅了

星期五，朋友给我了劝告
原来我在他人心中是一个懒人
我在意，但想回，我知道自己不是就好：-）

所以就需要做出一些成绩来咯
以为会有努力了
但因为酒精害我又懒了下来
不能了！停止吧！

我要向前冲先，
上帝已经在告诉我了，不能再想从前那个没大志的我
冲，冲，冲吧！

2009-05-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

没有车

今天终于把车送进厂修理了
德等多几天呢！麻烦

幸亏有朋友们的协助
谢谢你们哦！
呵呵！

上几天他给我转了封E-mail
今天回了

“有机再聊”
天啊！
这是哪颗星球的话语呢？
不过看了那句心里有点不平衡
所以应该是报复心态吧
也用同一句回他

okay!
可能是我想多了
但算了，因为不会都回了...啊哈哈！

今天和janice,iris 吃晚餐去了，
开心！

要为前途加油了
Gambateh 呢！

2009-05-03T23:40:00.003+08:00

又过了一个星期

才刚到KL，超塞车的
因为有长假期

这几天为自己设了一些目标
但并不想说出口，因为担心不能实现
所以只好收在心里面
如果实现了，会大声说出口
那么才有成就嘛！哈哈

要使自己的生活更精彩
确实要做些行动
不然什么也是多余的啦

上帝啊！
我需要您的光芒和照亮
让我向您的光芒前进吧！
感恩您！

这星期回家乡
可说是相当无聊的
但还好，因为这就叫休息啊！
呵呵！

明天又是新的一天了
加油，向前冲啊！

2009-04-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

哈哈

本来昨天就想写部落格了
但因为亲戚没有中文之新
所以只好今天写啦

这几天一直在追求一些能让自己过得更好的事情来做
希望能过得充实一点

所以还在寻找自己的方向
加油了！

我的部落格美吧！
多谢Jovi ：-）

2009-04-22T23:37:00.002+08:00

普通

哇！这几天的天气真是会让人发癫的
是热到....
头好痛的，怕生病的：-（

这几天并没什么特别事情发生
所以过得蛮简单的：-）

但有时还是觉得孤单
这是难免啦
没办法，呵呵！

今天和表弟吃午餐
突然告诉我说他要认识跟多的朋友
去Club认识他朋友的朋友

我想了一下，我是不是需要在开阔我的朋友圈了呢？
因为我觉得身边的朋友都有了自己的归宿
我想我也因该建立我的社交圈啦
不然害怕会孤独一身
啊哈哈，是严重点啦
不过我还是怕...呵呵！

让自己活得漂亮，快乐点是很重要的
今天看了一篇文章，
说有关女人天生爱漂亮，
不打扮就没信心，
这是真的哦！
开始要注意我的饮食了，这几天可是爆饮爆食的
恐怖的恨，怕肥了

停吧！Nicole

2009-04-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

心里突然哼的歌曲

一首簡單的歌

詞：王力宏/陳鎮川　曲：王力宏

這世界很複雜混淆我想說的話

我不懂太複雜的文法

什麼樣的禮物能夠永遠記得住

讓幸福別走得太倉促

雲和天蝶和花從來不需要說話

斷不了依然日夜牽掛

唱情歌說情話只想讓妳聽清楚

我愛妳是唯一的傾訴

寫一首簡單的歌讓妳的心情快樂

愛情就像一條河難免會碰到波折

這一首簡單的歌並沒有什麼獨特

好像我那麼的平凡卻又深刻

我一直在思考讓妳了解我的好

卻忘了常常對妳微笑

失去的忘記的我會盡力去彌補

妳是我最珍貴的財富

寫一首簡單的歌讓妳的心情快樂

愛情就像一條河難免會碰到波折

這一首簡單的歌並沒有什麼獨特

好像我那麼的平凡卻又深刻 (深刻簡單的歌)

簡單的歌寫一首簡單的歌

讓妳的心情快樂愛情就像一條河

難免會碰到波折這一首簡單的歌

並沒有什麼獨特

好像我那麼的平凡卻又深刻

2009-04-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

休息的一天，让我学了不少的东西

今天，星期日，中午才起身
过得挺有意思的，
本来和朋友有约，但临时放了飞机
不过，我呢！已经冲了凉，换好衣了

不浪费我的装扮，就到附近的面包店逛了
也买了我爱吃的水果

好久没在客厅里坐着看电视了
今天坐着坐着坐了3个小时：-）

看了“我猜”，接着看：鲁豫有约-郑秀文”
看了“鲁”，我觉得，我会再继续看，因为当中让我学了不少的东西

今天鲁豫说了名句，好长，没记下
但是我感受到当中的意义和坚持
是一句让生活更美好的一句话
我说不出来，但我感受和学到了：-）

我发现，

一个人，在这世上，往往都在为自己学习和创造未来
但有时自己并没有发觉到
就像今天的我，没有想到我就在“鲁”里学了东西
每一天的生活，对话，无聊.郁闷...多别把它看成废话

用另一角度去看，
再无聊，纳闷时，朋友给的安慰，
生活的琐碎和谈话的当中，
是会使你学到一些你没体会过的东西的

所以我们要认真的去生活
会看到不同角度的美丽，色彩，快乐，和学问

哈，我为什么突然觉得自己好哲学哦？
不好意思啦
呵呵！！！

2009-04-18T23:14:00.004+08:00

这两天

嗯！

昨天发现到我的一位朋友好恐怖
她尽然像电影里的奸角一样
她策划了每一个故事的开始，然后让原本是好朋友的一对，成为互相猜测的敌人
她呢！就成为着两人中间的好人

我~~~原来并不笨，听了这被她陷害的朋友（也是我得蛮好的朋友)讲述她的过去和现在的一小节和她唱衰她的一些东东
我已经分析出来她是一个“奸角”
可是我这蛮好的朋友且还是以为她是好人
我好想帮她，但我害怕，最后我决定把这奸角交给上帝去评
我好怕她~~~~

今天到教堂去
说到好似我之前的私生活，我是那个David&Bathsiba
我真的后悔了，我把自己践踏了
听了今天的福音。我确确实实知道上帝已经原谅我了
而且原谅我的原因是，他知道我有以Broken Spirit 去向他confess

我永远是与主同在的
谢谢你的宽容以慈悲

开心今天所学到的
要开始建立以主之间更深厚的感情了

Amen

2009-04-16T15:22:00.003+08:00

突然

OKAY!!!

今天被三个顾客放了飞机，KNS 的!!!

但坐在家里电脑面前并不是无效的
突然有个概念，像让自己的生活更色彩
我决定了一些活动，
在寻觅中和策划中

活动如下：
1）要要求Iris或Jovi 教我如何美化我的Blog
2）计划着去练舞，向Elyn 索取了一些资料
3）每星期固定一之两天游泳
4）这星期六打扫房间，不会有什么变化，但会清洁点
5）当这四项准备功夫完整，会做个时间表，然后成为我电脑里的壁画

Yeah！！
感觉生气来了
Woot Woot!!!

2009-04-15T22:41:00.004+08:00

独自一人，

他没在理我了，算了
但还是伤,38婆一个

我已经在房里呆了3天了
想象这几天的我就像宅女一样
毫不无聊的！

一只告诉自己不能说闷和无聊
但真的好难

真的不能再怨任何事情了，
还是要好好的生活

上帝！给我点色彩吧！
你知道我要的很简单，
您也知道我现在最需要的是什么
就帮帮我吧！
给我方向好吗？

不抱怨，不说闷，不羡慕，
说快乐，说开心，说有目标

自己是最好的！
nicole 站起来
施铭站起来

我要变忧郁了，糟糕 :-(
求求您了，Gv my life some color :-(

2009-04-13T12:39:00.002+08:00

无聊的日子

这既几个星期我都过得很平淡
有点郁闷...叹！

但也没有什么不好
因为这样代表着轻松咯！
呵呵！

上星期六帮爸爸庆祝生日
很开心，晚餐后到码头去喝茶直到凌晨呢！

下一次回家的活动呢！满期待的
因为我们会拿红酒到海边去品尝
过着消费低的假日

我怀疑，很怀疑，很害怕
为那天晚上所做的坏事付出代价

真得很怕！！！
怎么办？
哎！！！

2009-04-09T23:45:00.003+08:00

SS2晚餐兼宵夜

和cousins 们到SS2 吃东东
谈了一整晚的笑话，好不开心的：-）

忘记一个人真地很难，唉！
不想再提了：-（

我们这个家庭的成员，永远在冲动后所做出的事情感到愧疚的
叹！不知是好或是坏

总觉得他人错了很想生气，但往往却问自己是不是我们本身错先
好矛盾哦！这就是我们这家庭的毛病...啊哈哈！

这有时是优点但也是缺点
最重要的还是做回自己吧！
才不会那么辛苦
因为过了自己的那关就是已经打败我们心里面的那个敌人咯
心理的敌人败了，一切就会恢复原型啦

外在的敌人又多凶狠都难不到我们了：-）
所以我们要和自己对抗
因了赢了自己就等于赢了所有的难题咯！

加油!!!

2009-04-08T18:39:00.002+08:00

衰，衰，衰

今天抱着兴奋的心情去和表弟吃午餐
半路时遇上车祸了，叹！

幸亏有Nickson 的协助
就这样我的一天浪费在警局里了

好死不死撞上了Medz 然后又是一位律师
天啊！你在给我怎样的测试呢？

当下觉得好无助，感觉就很衰
哭了，但幸亏身边都有很多好好的朋友和亲戚协助

事情终究解决了，
谢谢你们的关心和帮助哦！
：-）

2009-04-07T11:14:00.002+08:00

心情

这几天又像回到从前的我了
我不要！！
因为要花钱，然后没心情工作，累得很！

我感觉自己就因为他人的话语，就迷失了自己
这是一件很悲哀的事情：-（

我心里我个迷惑~~~他会不会是‘基佬’？
这问题一直烦扰在我头脑里，天啊！

我开始又懒了
怎么办呢？

我好想有推动力啊
谁能给以我呢？

2009-04-04T15:16:00.002+08:00

生活的步调

真得很不喜欢一个人留在KL
感觉真的很寂寞：-（

要得到一个人的陪伴真的那么难吗？
我真的什么都很好
就是在感情上太执著了
所以我得到的结果就如此吗？

他也很少理睬我了：-（
回了他简讯，他竟然没答复我，这是什么意思呢？

我竟然在想念的不是他

而是一个我不因该想念的另一个他
一个以我什么多不是但却有很多接触的那个他

我是在搞什么呢？
我朋友都对我感到多余了
我也觉得我很多余了：-（

悲哀的星期六
好想回家：-（

2009-04-02T16:15:00.003+08:00

回到从前

哎！哎！哎!
为什么我又如此了呢？

就因为要证明给你看我还有人要
就做出伤害我自己的事情

幸亏一切点到为止
不然我就完了：-（

为什么？
我开始就要发狂了

到底有什么办法能让我逃离这一切呢？

好希望现在有个洞能让我穿过去
或一个山谷能让我沉睡在里头

就这样Ｎｉｃｏｌｅ　不再出现了

累的人生

2009-03-31T12:02:00.002+08:00

迟来的CNY照片哦！

妹和我

捞生~~发财啊!

准备中

捞啊~~捞啊~~发啊...哈哈

丰富的晚餐...YUMMY~~

Happy Family :-)

The Craziest Couzy Ever~~~Love Them Much

The several Last Post la..hehe

就这几张先啦~其他的还在电话...呵呵！
慢慢欣赏啦！

2009-03-30T22:04:00.003+08:00

又时一天的开始

今天过得就很简单：-）
没什么特别
但还是想写部落格
呵呵!

昨天以弟弟，妈妈和爸爸去看紫薇斗
说得好是很好似的

会富贵呢！
期待那一天的到来
但也不能放太大希望
因为他说我老公疼我

我心想会不会是因为他没人娶，我没人嫁
所以我们成为夫妻，然后他很丑
所以疼我？？？

哈哈！
如果如此也得接受了
因为至少他疼我嘛
没办法咯
哈哈！

紫薇斗不知该信以否？

祷告向上帝请求原谅
因为去看未来是错误的
上帝会安排一切的

听了就当是一个指导吧
因为上帝才是那个帮我安排道路的神

对不起：-（

2009-03-28T12:12:00.002+08:00

昨天

发现新大路了！

昨天犹疑着要不要回马六甲
最后决定就是回，呵呵！

和妹妹和她男友到鸡场街吃东西
没开，伤心
就转了另一地点
竟然给我看到一幕不可思议的画面

我公司的GM 和我公司的一个员工竟然来到马六甲偷吃
我无法接收啊！！！在我看到那一刹那崩溃了！OMG

真是注定啊，因为那小巷真是好少人会经过的
但偏偏给我碰到了，无言...

过后去取车时，我看到了他的车，
就停在我前面的前面的前面，好巧合吧！

一切注定啦！
如果我不是到那间cafe
我就不会发现新大路，
我就可能会见到他（害怕，不知如何面对，所以不要见到最好:-)〕

哇！真是一次探险的返家日啊！
惊险，刺激，害怕

嗯！难得！
心力承受度100％
啊哈哈！

2009-03-27T16:03:00.009+08:00

“他可能不是最好的，但他是你所选择的，珍惜！”

七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。
——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。快递为男孩送来一个盒子。男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……

2009-03-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

电影天

哇！我的大姨妈终于来了
昨天和朋友去喝酒，喝黄梨水，目的就为了让这迟了5 天的大姨妈快快来！
神经质吧，呵呵!

但它来了，却让我今天过得好辛苦
呕吐和肚泻了整个早上
直到傍晚4 点多才能上班去

过后就去看电影了
因为今天是公司的电影节
不错看，是说有关外星人的
在电影院里感觉整个很紧张的

好快，今天又星期四了
又给他传forward E-mail, 他也给我传forward sms
好奇怪的感觉，哈哈
但也没把此放在心上... ... ...

他常传来的都是叫我要快乐
我也希望他快乐
我感受到你的祝福

谢谢！

2009-03-24T22:28:00.002+08:00

懒

昨天想写
但因懒虫在身，就去睡了，呵呵！

原来我发现，我的部落格是有人来浏览的
不错不错，哈哈！

这几天好累，也好忙
真的希望我能去日本
我为这一次给拼了

心情...不知怎么形容
但总觉得，只想烂在家里，不想以外界接触太多
我变了，变得不是我！

快回来咯！
在这样下去可是不得了啦！

Nicole
回来啦！

你不再是施了
你是原来的Nicole

啊哈哈！
三八吧！
呵呵

2009-03-22T11:55:00.002+08:00

星期天的早晨

哇！已经四天没写部落格了 :-(

这几天感觉都过得蛮充实的
因为sales要接近尾声了嘛
所以有在很努力的向前冲，哈哈！

心里有很多东西想写
但觉得已经没有意义了
所以还是回到自己的生活最佳啦 '-)

昨天去了JB 出席我堂哥的婚礼
好想结婚也是呢！呵呵！

但我觉得上帝有所安排吧！
我真的感觉到，因为事业与金钱对现在的我是重要不过了

Nicole 加油！加油啦！

2009-03-18T12:45:00.002+08:00

‘衣某’= emo

这个名词是他创造的，哈哈

其实昨天很不开心，约朋友们去吃饭个个都不得空
心情又跌入谷底了：-（

我忍不住回了他e-mail，他也很礼貌上的回了两句---“哈哈！谢谢！”
我真的喷火了！我也知道是什么了！

过后向朋友哭诉的时候，已经决定了一个答案，就是我真的撞墙了。
好明显啊！！

过了不久情绪还没稳定时，他突然给了我一封简讯，
我有崩溃了，因为要彻底忘了又来一个提醒
上帝真地给我好大一个考验啊！

跪下来求上帝让我把他忘了
心情才平复一点
看了ANTM 就没事了

真是过渡期啊！
快快来个爱我的人吧！

自从2008开始，我觉得我就一直困扰在‘ 情 ’里边，
真是辛苦的，

Give me some Break PLEASE!!!

2009-03-16T21:18:00.002+08:00

开始的一天

今天抱着开心的心情去签单。
但被一个顾客给放飞机了：-（

我们也让Carol 生气了。
这是我第一次看他就要掉泪了，对不起哦！

有小小期待他的email
但看过后有点伤心
因为他只给我回了两小句

那是什么意思呢？
心渐渐淡了

我看答案很快会越来越明显
我也没回他了
就看会有什么下文吧！

累：-（

2009-03-15T17:59:00.002+08:00

无聊的星期天

啊！
整天呆在家里，好无聊啊！

好想念你：-（
可是我已知道你对我的感觉是零了

因为你一封简讯也没传给我：-（

上帝啊！
如果这个他不是我的他，请你派个天使给我
让我快快忘了他吧

想念有时候并不是那么的甜蜜的
是会心淌血的

求求你了：-（

好想穿简讯给他喔
但值得吗？

烦

2009-03-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

自信的一天

好久没到教堂了
今天又回去，上帝传达了我一向来缺乏的“信心”

他告诉我们说，他是创造我们的神，我们都是有价值的，如果我们看不起自己代表鄙视他了
所以要让自己有信心了
另外，原谅他认识很重要的，因为这会让自己更快乐：-）

今天过得不错，以朋友下午吃饭，喝酒（哈哈，下午喝酒的感觉不错的）。
晚上和另一班朋友吃饭

我以他现在都互传e-mail了。
不知道下一步是如何
但现在的感觉蛮不错的

有想以他再在一起的希望，但还是由上帝安排
现在享受这感觉就好：-）

好累
晚安！

2009-03-12T19:56:00.002+08:00

勇气

今天发生很多开心的事
好想找个人分享，脑子里他的影子出现了

和朋友谈了，他说想以他分享就去吧！
我真的做了

Julee 说他知道我不撞墙心是不死的
对！我承认了：-（

我鼓起勇气发送了他一封e-mail
心里舒坦了
只想找个他分享而已
如果他回就当作朋友的开始吧
如果没回就让他过去了

至少我过了自己的那一关

有要对自己说加油了，哈哈！

今天是幸运的一天
有单签，感谢上天派来的天使哦：-）

2009-03-10T18:06:00.003+08:00

今天

今天去了聚宝轩买了三条水晶链
其实是不对的

但不知为何
这几天都很沉迷在这些有的没的
应该是太渴望了吧！

我得停止这一切
祷告是最实在的了

时间很重要
忍耐更重要
一切都是上帝的安排

一切只好听从他的了

加油哦！

2009-03-08T12:19:00.002+08:00

回到伤心地

回到时，他给了封简讯我。
问我是否回来，但我却没回他

其实我有想见他的冲动，但我认了。
因为我知道如果我见了他，我会再陷进去

叹！你再给我传简讯吧！
我会安慰你的
给我点时间吧

也不放太多希望啦，
真的只好顺其自然咯：－（

KL 的同学将下来
在想要办什么活动来丰富他们的一天

我觉得别想了，因为要接收更好的爱情

2009-03-06T00:35:00.002+08:00

今天

过着自己的生活

给他回了封简讯后，他也回了封
感觉像我已原谅他

但这一切都无所谓了
长痛不如短痛嘛！

和朋友到了Look Out Point 吃晚餐
过了一个满悠闲的晚上
谢谢你们

有时我在想...
我真的必须建立我的信心了
一个爱我的人不希望看到的我是愁眉苦脸的吧！
他们也会跟着我不快乐
所以我要改变

不用管他人的眼光
活得开心，有信心就可以吸引别人了
敞开心胸，我就会快乐
别理会他人对我的对待

活得开心最重要

加油！

2009-03-05T13:25:00.002+08:00

失败：-（

我回了他简讯
我败了

但已无法挽回
爸爸妈妈对我失望了

现在只有我自己站起来了
失败啊

朋友真的好重要哦
他们为了我的失恋
尽量来陪伴我

谢谢你们：-）
但我心已Okay 啦

别担心
我回他讯息其实是要给自己来个机会
但受到的却告诉我适可而止了：-）

2009-03-04T12:31:00.002+08:00

心情

心情好多了
希望这一次能让我学习到什么是拍拖

怎么去对待一个男生，可说是要有学问的
两个人已一个人的生活真的不一样

你会去担心他，会去想念他，会去关心他
他会问候你，关心你，和你道晚安

其实回忆也是甜蜜的
但希望我的下一段会遇到一个真的会为我付出的人，一个会真正珍惜我的人，
一个会珍惜我所为他付出爱的人

有点不舍因好快就没了那感觉
但也是种考验和经验
希望会有一个会把握我的付出的人出现咯！

加油！

2009-03-03T21:13:00.001+08:00

笨蛋

吴凯伦，你完蛋了！

想和我再做朋友？
我可以说算了吧！

我要让你知道，没有珍惜我是你的损失
我没给你答案，是要让你内疚

对你我可以说没有爱了
只有讨厌
但还是希望你过得好

后会无期了！

2009-03-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

为什么？

我已经告诉自己要放下了，
但还是会想念：-（

和Frannie 谈天后，真的好想念他
心里一直呼唤他的匿名

在和朋友讲电话
突然有简讯，希望是他，但已经没有可能了吧！
但真的是他：-（

问我‘你还好吗？我今请假，不舒服，等下想去打球出出汗’
看了这封简讯再让我有了烦恼：-（
你还要我的关心吗？以什么身份呢？
我是你女友还是朋友呢？

好烦恼！
打了给妈妈，她告诉我要坚持
所以没给他会简讯了

和朋友喝茶
他们教了我一些招数，希望我真能用上吧！

我有希望原谅他，给自己或他一次机会
但可否？

一切顺其自然吧
上帝有它的安排：-）

2009-03-03T09:54:00.003+08:00

一觉后

今早起床，不想去上班
突然有个感觉唤醒我，告诉我要活的快乐

起来了，
感觉舒服多了，没有昨天来的的痛了
不想再怨，诅咒了。
只想祝福他

这是一次错误的邂逅吧
但我心里真的爱过

最后给他的话了...

宝宝，我真的爱你，但我们不属于彼此吧!!
祝你快乐，工作顺利

但抱歉的是我无法与你成为朋友了
因为我会很痛

拜拜了宝宝!!! :-*

2009-03-03T05:33:00.003+08:00

分手了：-（

好快的一段恋情啊!悲：-（

简单的一句
“做朋友会比情人久点？心情怪怪的！也不想想，给我点时间！晚安！”
我被抛弃了 :-(

对男生已经失望的我，现在他把我给打的败败了
好伤心，好伤心
原来这一切只是那么短暂

哭了，怨了，诅咒了，
最终还是得喊停
我做错了吗？
好讨厌，好讨厌他

啊...........!!!!
好讨厌他!!!!

2009-03-01T13:50:00.002+08:00

回来－见面

当我回到时，充满了期待。
但他却给我失望 :-(

他竟然去见他朋友，也没想过要见我。叹!
给的理由就是“想走但脚行不动”什么跟什么啊？

可是eric给予劝告说可能他有他的理由，所以别往坏处想
但另一件事又发生了，他真的没有想要见我:-(

他会来见我时，只有去看电影或一些其他约会，但就是不会想要见见我:-(
我告诉自己再给他机会

晚上见面了，告诉我的不快。
他说会尽量改，那就看时间的证明咯!

妹妹告诉我她的six sense，我与他不会是永远的，有点伤心，
但真的没有什么是永远的，只好见步行步咯!
就当它是一种学习吧!
就让我享受初恋的感觉吧!

顺其自然咯!

2009-02-25T10:16:00.002+08:00

宝宝对不起

和妹妹通了电话
在思考
觉得自己也有不对的地方了
太强救了，他会感觉被束缚吧！

但他总是复议
今天得告诉他不用常谈电话了
互相知道对方在做什么就好

我不要成为一个会绑着男朋友的女人
SoOoOoOoOory 宝宝
我知道你的辛苦了：-（

2009-02-24T23:58:00.004+08:00

讨厌现在的我

等！等！等！
每天都在等，累

再累朋友叫就去给面子
但打给女朋友就没那能耐

什么跟什么?

我想我会喊停了
我要的不是如此
会很辛苦：-（

2009-02-23T03:52:00.002+08:00

有是烦的一天

今天从9 pm等他电话到1am多，因为他去工作了
等得我也睡着了，2am 是忽然醒了。
打了封简讯问他好不好，怎么巧有简讯进来，是他发的

只是和我说了声对不起，要听他声音吗？和我想你该睡着了晚安：-*
而且这是在一小时前发送的，我当时才收到。

其实我不该生气的，因为他是怕吵醒我
但是他没有担心的吗？简讯没有发送出去，电话也没来个：-（

忍不住发了简讯给他，告诉他我伤心，睡不着了：-（
就等明天如何了！

我可能太霸道了吧！
但其实我要的是小小的关心而以
我是否太强救了？
心绪很乱：-（

2009-02-20T08:47:00.003+08:00

感觉幸福

和宝宝谈了两小时的电话，
谈了很多不是属于我们现在这阶段的话题

但我们却好像在策划着
未免也太快了？
他也如此对待他的前女友吗？
今天的问问他...

今天属于周末了
但却没有机会见他
好纳闷：-（

有幻想过他的出现和给我个惊喜
但只纯粹幻想啦
他没可能出现。叹!

但没办法啦
他忙嘛，必须体谅

得见顾客去了，加油！
相信宝宝又得过着忙碌的一天啦，加油咯!
:-*

2009-02-18T18:22:00.003+08:00

没信心

开始有些担心了：-（
可能我想太多吧！

好害怕我这些天的快乐要我付出恐怖的代价
也好害怕他离开我：-（

我知道这想法是错的
好像不信他。可是我很相信他，只是对自己没什么信心：-（
我希望我会是个乐观的人
施，加油!!!

他好忙哦！真是辛苦他了
宝宝，你要加油咯！
别把自己累坏了：-*

2009-02-16T23:18:00.004+08:00

想念他的一天

他病了：-（
担心

给了他简讯
就直到晚上才通电话

在傍晚，我哭了
因为他没有给我通电话

我以为他要消失了
又听了朋友们的一些有的没的
害我哭成泪人儿：-（

但Ice 得一通电话
让我又感觉甜蜜了
因为我给他打了电话，才知道其实他是一个害羞的人，哈哈
我想他是不会承认啦，不过无所谓，因为我知道就好hehe

今天给了对方匿称，
他是我的宝宝，我是施

好甜蜜哦！

所以不能想太多啦
晚安，宝宝 muacks:-)

2009-02-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

14th Feb 2009

我恋爱了!!!

哈哈，原来他就是我的初恋啦
心中有无数的情绪，快乐，担心，害怕....

不知道为什么？
以他分隔两地，并不是不好
但又担心才刚开始就如此，会如何呢？
别想太多吧，相信彼此最重要：-）

他病了，有点担心：-（
希望我不在他身边他能好好照顾自己吧！！！
他说他骨痛，真是有点怕
希望他快快好起来

2009-02-11T22:32:00.004+08:00

又过了两天

时间真的过得好快哦!!!
星期一给他打了封简讯后，就没联络两天了：-（

好期待他的简讯
直到今天和Julee 吃晚餐时，有个冲动想给他传封简讯，但没有因为面子问题
但心里却忐忑的很...

Spend 了差不多的时间后，别各自回家了。
当坐在床上时，有封简讯来了，以为是Julee 给我报平安
怎知，是他...好开心哦!!!啊哈哈!!!

他问了我是否这星期回家，那是什么意思呢？
问了妹妹和Julee，他们都说回吧!!!但心里又怕怕，好像很渴望见到他似的，又是面子。叹!!!

但刚约朋友下星期见面，是否又是注定的回去了呢？
啊...冷静，冷静

可能他没朋友陪吧，所以也找我这寂寞之人咯!!!
别放太大希望啦...

回或不？
烦恼着
就给彼此更深的认识吧!!!
就给自己机会吧!!!

问号的一天????

2009-02-09T00:57:00.003+08:00

两天没写了

两天没写部落格了
今天爸妈还有亲戚们到kl阿姨家。
我们全部聚集一堂，好似开心的。

今年的新年好快乐，因为我们好久没聚集在一起了。
会upload一些照片，等待...

mmm...回到我心里的话了
这两天他都有联络我，心里其实在向我两是处于怎样的心态呢？
是我的单方面向太多吗？叹!!!有点烦的...

为什么他总会打电话给我呢？回到马六甲了也会告诉我呢？但有时我回他简讯问问题时，他却没有回我。真是把我给弄糊涂了。哀!!!

他只是把我打当普通朋友吗？还是好谈的朋友？我
却要忍耐想要问出口的话
所谓放长线钓大鱼，我得忍耐我对他的好感

有点烦的，但我已告诉自己要爱自己了。
也要让自己快乐
所以一切就由上天安排咯。
快乐好运就回来，所以我要也一定会开开心心的

不只明天又会是如何呢？
一切就如此吧!!
保持开朗最重要

累了，睡了
今天是快乐的一天因为与亲戚们聚在一起
明天会更好啦

晚安!!!

2009-02-05T22:48:00.002+08:00

开工的第一天

mm...今天过得特别快
虽然只是开工第一天就已近有两个appointment

今天没什么特别的事发生
只是较亲近的朋友告诉我说有不同了

哈!!!我也不知羞耻的告诉他们感觉有人在追求我
希望如此啦，哈哈!!!

在开会时，因没把电话带进房里，也不知有简讯
直到开完会了，检查电话，有他的简讯哦!!!虽然只是forward msg 啦
有点开心的，哈哈!!!

朋友要我回了那封简讯我也会了

Frannie 要我陪她到夜店去，我也陪了
在路上，他打来了。没接到。
但我们又有了联系
开心!!!

但我还是得保持平常心啦!!!
免得若一场打空

为明天的tunning 加油了!!!
有点怕怕：-（

累了，睡了，晚安!!!

2009-02-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

回到寂静的小窝了

等待!!等待!!!
始终还是没有简讯的到来，叹!!!

回来前，妈妈一直告诉我，记得别给他传简讯
我想我也得如此啊!!!

因为过了当天他再也没有给以主动的关心和问候
相信答案已经很明显了吧!!!

今天却收到他的email，好多女生的网址也在里边，
他真得很是可以的，算了吧!!!

只有等他传简讯给我了
是你的不去勉强也会更着你跑，跟着你追
所以得等待下一段的邂逅了。

现在的我要努力向前跑了，
没有时间再让我去想无畏的东东了

GAMBATEH NEH!!! NICOLE SANG!!!

2009-02-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

今天的我

忍不主，传了封简讯给他。
迟迟都不回，以为他不当我是朋友了。

躺在床上睡了两小时，起身也没他的回应
失望了，开始感到伤心了。

傍晚，到亲戚家吃饭，
相信有些朋友开始想念我了吧!!!
简讯与电话来了几通，但都不是他。
也没再期待什么

不久，与一位朋友谈话的当下，有简讯进来了。
没抱太大希望，以为是妹妹找我了。也没管太多。
还再谈时，阿姨打来了，接起电话，也没看简讯。

终于电话也谈完了，看看简讯
啊!!!是他!!!
感觉也快乐的，但心里就告诉自己。
把他当朋友先，以后的事以后再谈，因为至少他还把我当朋友
也就有希望啦!!!

保持开朗，很多美好的事都会降临。
顺其自然，唯有如此了!!!

加油!!!

2009-02-02T18:52:00.002+08:00

看了场电影，喝了碗汤水后...

心有点怪怪的，会错意了。
隔了一天，没有任何讯息。
这应该是有别的意思了吧!!!

所谓妹妹说的试感觉
蛮伤的，但又如何，只有接收咯!!!

爱情不能勉强，
只好等待下一场的邂逅啦!!!

幸亏没有包太大的希望
今年的新年假期可说是蛮丰富的，不知该笑还是该哭。

又要加油啦!!!哈哈!!!

2009-02-01T02:24:00.003+08:00

新年的我

今天好想用华语把我心里的烦恼说出来。感觉以为恋爱来了，但却感到悲哀。因为不知道是因为我的想要恋爱还是所谓有了小小的感觉。我真的不想在马六甲留下任何感情的谷，因为我会害怕回来时感到悲痛。好怕好怕!!!悲哀，难以说出口，叹!!!

连续四天他主动的联络，身边的人说我的恋爱来了，以为有机会了。但感觉象错觉，却希望也好想它是真的。

他对任何人都如此吗?因为他爱交朋友的心态吗?他的热情给予我错觉吗?我真的真的不知道!!!
一直告诉自己他只不过是想与我做个朋友，但心里却好想好想他会再来封问候的讯息。但却没有，忍不住，我转了封，却在第三封时停止了当天的谈话。

这到底是怎么的一回时啊???真的好讨厌陷进去所谓的爱情感觉里。只是我的一厢情愿吧!!!还是我得争取，给自己一个机会呢？

我太想恋爱了吧！太想有个他来陪伴吧！也可能没耐性等待真正的爱情吧！该如何是好呢？

为什么我总爱在遇到某某的他时就希望他是我恋爱的对象呢？为什么不能把他当朋友来看待然后再真正认识交往呢？我太没耐性了，叹！害怕男性朋友给予太多的关心，总是让自己误会恋爱的来临，我太渴望了吧!!!

好期待下一封他的sms。我得冷静冷静了，爱情离我太远了，我不知道那种感觉是如何的。
好烦啊!!!原本快乐的新年又被我搞渣了。

一切顺其自然吧，别想太多了!!!冷静是唯一的办法。加油NICOLE!!!

2008-11-06T03:43:00.002+08:00

...

I DON WANT TO BE A GIVE IN PERSON ANYMORE

i don wan to be give in anymore as i find out that it wont be getting any appreciation from them!!!
so y am i doin so....

so whoever need my help now.... if i can help I WILL...if i cant help I WONT EVER FEEL SORRY OR GUILTY ...

I try my best to be my part but u are abusing my kindness...

I am no more da one that ppl tot i am easily USE or said BULLY!!!

Fuck those ppl who making me like THIS!!!

2008-09-11T23:35:00.004+08:00

WAH...SUDAH LAMA TAK POST>>>>hehe

ok...I have been so so so lazy to blog nowadays....
but have to if not i will be forget alot of thing tat hv happen the last 1 month

First...yeah i have scandal with some random guy again and he is now in Japan so we hv loose out contact and me have slowly forget but sometime still thinking of him la...wahhaa...but me recover nicely liao la...

Second...me been lazy to do my work...lazy to get sales...DIE!!! as next month for sure no comission lo...how to SURVIE!!! ARGH

Third...I HAVE LOST MY BELOVE HPW800i...I hate the stupid banana man...wu~~~ n i lost everything n oso HIS CONTACT...I cry like a baby....but now i am fine liao and get another phone W890i...hehe kind of like it now as da very first day i bought it i not really like it...

The last but not least which is a GOOD NEWS...I HAVE LOST 7KGS YO!!!>>..so so so happy...ahaha...I really put my effort for the last 3 mths and it reallly get me bek da result,...happy!!!

Ok let me tell u how it happen tat my phone got stolen...
me backside itchy...haha normally i wil go to USJ10 some shop to get my lovely banana...but tat day i tot of maybe i can go to this market stall which selling cheaper one to get...
so i went there...by da time i wanna get my wallet to pay for my banana...i throw my phone into my bag which i hold it all da while till i grab my wallet out...
so this stolen thing happen....I think da banana guy saw i throw da hp in n i jz let my bag to be open...n from there he jz take out my phone...n my lovely W800i and those lovely msg n lovely contact have say bye bye to me forever....wu~~~so so so even now think of it oso heart ache ya....
HAIZ!!!

but my fren tell me this is all fated and da god wan me to be myself again n forgot everything has happen da last mth...yeah I think tat so

hehe...tats my update and thinng has happen da last few mths la...I will be good gal again n get some lovely one to love me,...wahaha

P/S: I noe is not tat easy but follow God's fate la....yeah

BLESS ME MY DEAR LORD!!!AMEN!!!

2008-07-22T23:52:00.005+08:00

Something is going wrong to me!!!

I have been so long nvr blog.
So sry that i will start with a sad blog!!!

I have been so down down mood the last few days....
Me fell v someone who has gf....n we have done sth which is over our frenship

I am so so so deprive n mess now....
But thnx lord he has send alot of angels to me to warm my sadness....
to cool my emotion....I seriously hate myself of doin all this things......

I hate hate hate myself....but i cant tel anyone anymore as i told them i hv recover n wan to be as usual as I am...but it needs time...n now PMS...so my emotion is consider CRAZY....

I hate myself as I hv done sth i nvr think b4...especially da way he tell me tat I miss him in super confident way n it tells me tat he noes how much I miss him...Yes I miss him but he cant miss me...as for him is jz a temporary feels tat he wan to get from outside his gf world..

I hate myself as I alwaz tel my fren that i will not except a person to be the third party n now I am...though I pull back,... but da evil side of me still wish for sth to be happen...i am so cruel n selfish...I know

I hate myself... I cant really be tough when I come to watch the hong kong series,....I feel all the sentence n plot is all like reflecting my sin I hv done...I cant tolerate n I cry every single scene....

I hate myself though all the angels have send me msg to ask me forget him....but I still struggle on that...y cant i jz be awake...

I hate myself as I miss him so much and will think tat if he is thinking or missing me as well...n I noe tat it is impossible....

I feel myself is a like a cheap bitch.........I hate hate hate myself....ppl will tel me jz forget it n take it as a lesson or experience....but for me is hard as I nvr touch on love b4 n I fall for this time....

My fren tell me...in a person life time,...there is lots of passer by...maybe this is one of ur passer by in ur life,...n lord wan u to collect all the passer by pros n cons n one day he will send u a REAL LOVE in ur life....

LORD i pray for it LORD....I need ur support to make me stronger and able to handle the passer by

Thnx to my lord n my dear angels....
Thnx for listening to me

Please give me sometime n I will do my best to be back to normal...

I feeling better now ;-)

2008-04-28T23:19:00.003+08:00

Photos.... some regular i am doin for this monthe

Wat Else?? Clubbing lo wahaaha

Bar Celona
be our main entertaining club since it has open
Y? as is near and we noe someone there so is more fun lo....
but da bottle is very expensive la so only go for Ladies nite lo
WAHAHA

Nadia ,Jun and ME
(me n Nadia wearing same color..hehe)

Seong, Nadia n ME
(Seong is Nad's collegue..quite fun i think hehe)

Nadia n ME
(Best Dancing Partner Ever!!!)
Fun to be with

Cocoa Banana
A very New Club located at Sunway
Not really nice but i Drunk tat nite and it is dangerous as i drove bek from da club
n send my pals back home.... Think bek was so scary

Jun n ME
(i like this photo i look pretty n sexy...wahaha)
SIMPLY

Gan ma,Yng
Iris, SinYee n ME
(Pals i fetch bek home after club...beside SY)
So sry as i am drunk luckily u all r safe send home
HEHE

That's it some nice update...ehehe

2008-04-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

...no topic...randomly

I been stop smoking for a month plus 5 days

When i tel my pals tat i have quit smoking they feel it unbelievable as i am actually a heavy smoker since da day i noe them...

But seriously speaking... alot of ppl tell me that when quit smokin u will feel uneasy,running nose alot of things will happen...but i feel nth as i pray hard for this issue....i feel it nth if i am takin a ciggs,... is like i am not a smoker b4

The day i quit smoking is da day of da Resolution of Jesus Christ-Easter Day...I am proud of myself as i really did it from my heart... I really hope tat my frens-especially gals they can quit smoking....
Since i quit smoking i realise tat on a smoker body there alwaz a smell... a smell tat can tell everyone tat u are a smoker...it is harsh n strong smell....I feel tat i cant take da smell anymore it is sucks....

so my dear gal frens....try ur best to quit smoke ok....it really kill our health....coughing la....lung pain la...cant breath la...lots of health probs...TRY UR BEST!!!

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I am tired with my fren who LOVE MONEY MORE THAN ANYTHING

She can jz fall in love with anyone who is rich and jz hv alil bit feeling...than after a few weeks or a month she will jz broke up with those guy as da reason is tat all da guy cant afford da way she spend( this is all those guy come n tell me one)

Y da guy cant spend on her??
let me tell u

1) Heavy smoker. one day can smoke more to 3 packets of cigg
2) Clubbing.club is like her 2nd house without club like without life
3) Spend. Love to eat good food all da guy hv to spend on her, love shoppin need all da branded bags n purse
4)Time. Like to spend time with da bf prefer 24/7.da guy no need work liao
5)Phone. wont pick up phone if come to quarrel then make da guy feel tension wondering where she is
6) Nag. Don like ppl to nag on her if not BREAK UP will be da ending

Sometimes i am wondering... y is this ppl can jz treat their life like tat...is so meaningless...is there any happiness to them? change bf like changing clothes....jz da lil feeling than can say is FALL IN LOVE!!! don u think is childish,.....she is no more young but still treat her life like tat

I really wish tat she can get a bf or husband tat is really treat her good n rich FOREVER!!!!

MONEY IS NOT EVERYTING BUT NO MONEY WILL BE VERY CHAM!!!

but somehow we need to weigh da importance of da usage of money but not spending on all this thing....even how rich u are.., da money still will finis one day.... human will getting older n older if we are not doin anything tat can keep a good memory than da purpose to live in this world is NO PURPOSE!!!!

Tired of talking all those gal tat treat money like everything... jz wan to get a rich man....Y not u all do ur best n earn urself don u think it is more worth n meaningful....NO LOVE got MONEY than can jz paktor liao...CHILDISH!!!STUPID thing ever....IS URS MEANS URS IF NOT y not stand firm n find ur own way to live a better life????do u noe MONEY kill person who LOVE MONEY more than anything else

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Yeah ....This month i finally has hit my target... I am so happy as i hv did some result but oso scare as next mth if cant make it i will feel shy liao la....wahaha

But it will be a easy mth for me as i teach tuition as well n earn about RM 500+ n plus my comission there is around RM800+... so this mth i will hv around RM3000+... then i can hv a better life this mth la... but somehow i hv to save as hope to get a nice condo for myself in 5 to 10 yrs... hope my salary will keep da amount like this everymth then i can earn more n get a house soon....HOPE IT WILL COME TRUE!!!

Okay!!! i think i hv update my this whole mth story in this blog...hehe is quite a good way to tell in once instead everyday write as i am too LAZY wahaha

I feel so tired but cant sleep but will watch some nice TVB series... they are da most meaningful series ever!!! strongly recognise!!! hehe

Ciaoz....

2008-03-19T20:25:00.004+08:00

Do and Dont's from my Fucking Stupid Landlord

1.Open, truthful and honest communication is expected
(well, I am thinking sometime your sister voice is irritating and pls ask her to keep the mouth shut and talk softly)...this for sure i wont tell in front of u as u are so damn scare of ur sis stupid coward)

2. NO SMOKING in any part of the house.However, you may smoke far away outside and ensure the second hand smoke does not get into the house.( well this i s agree and say sry)

3. Friends are not allowed to come over too often or stay overnight. Short visits are okay, but not for prolonged periods. Family members are welcomed to visit once a while( so i wanna ask is boyfriend consider family or jz fren le??)

4. Lights, Fans and washing machine must be switched off when no one is in the room, toilet, hall or kitchen( well.sometimes forget to switch izzit will cost u thousand of cents???)

5. Only light cooking is allowed.(Since when u see me hv heavy cooking? i think u hv cook more heavy then me lo...all da oil smell alwaz make my room smell so oily)

6. Wash used cooking utensils and do not leave it unwashed for more than 2 days.( I have been seeing u nvr wash ur pan for 1 week, if u think of saying ppl pls look at urself first)

7.Tha vaccum cleaner,TV,fridge,gas stove & washing machine are allowed to be use.(thnx much but i think 1 week i maybe only use once,CHEAP)

8. Duplication of keys is strictly prohibited and unauthorized entry to the house is a serious offence.( Then y u duplicate the key for ur sis le?)

9.Make the effort to dispose of your rubbish/waste in a neat and tidy manner.( hello!!! pls look at the kitchen whose thing is simply throw around? and I only throw once in ur precious dustbin and u expect me to throw away all da rubbish for you?)

Well i think i need to talk to her about some issue which i nvr done in this fucking stupid house... she is making things ridiculous and unpredictable...is she lost her hormone in this age? I think i will ask lots of bugler to FUCK her thru she go crazy....

Dear ppl if u meet this kind of landlord pls try ur best way to move out.... I am goin to move very soon... Pls help me to search a room

Freaking tired of stayin here think of some place to move haiz...

2008-01-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!

Wau... after viewing my own blog only notice that i nvr been blog for one month... It such a long time man...

Well, actually da past one month do happen lots of thing... but is not really related to myself but my frens...

but jz have the feeling to blog for today...(hehe)

Been lots of drama happen since i noe this bunch of frens....

the very first story is this guy name...'hong zhu'... he has scandal v his best fren a gal name 'stephy' for 2 yrs... and this guy has intro her to his best fren name 'alex'(well guys 'hong zhu' has wife and alex hv nvr date b4)

This gal can say she kinda bitcy as from wat her action we see and she act is like she love money more than wateva (especially LOVE)...

Well... i think this kind of gal is every guys DREAM.... coz they are 'INNOCENT' as they will act like so girly and cute in front of those stupid guys...

the story is sth like this.....
Hong Zhu=H, Hong Zhu's Wife=W,Alex=A,Stephy=S

H and S are frens since primary sch, and H is in love v W for 6 yrs and married but H is also in love v S... H and S alwaz keep contact and wherever H go S will follow but no W as she need to take care her cute baby at home... she such a wonderful lady as she nvr demand on following H to anywhere and always give in H... but H nvr appreciate but still has scandal v da S... and H very confirm that he like S so much as S alwaz gv care on him n as well he gv care to S but not W...(complicated)

But from S side le.... she said she only treat H as a very best fren.... but S action is like.... when H msg (anytime) she will still reply and go out v him for any shit things happen (ppl out there, if u are a normal person will u think 'senget'? and u noe tat H like u?) and beside S n H can hug each other infront of W... as S is so sad n H need to cuddle her(WTF)

and come A, he is H best fren... and H alwaz push A to go after S,.... end up A has successfully to get S... but da story happen again.... H start to blame A tat he has betray him as he has take S away from him...(haiz)... and H start to do stupid thing like drinking like hell... taking drugs to make A feel guilty...

How this all thing has settle???
It happens in a club name 'Flam', is H bday and he alone drinking in da club n talking v da S... but well H is still fed up v A about all this shit has happen.... after all the calming from S and H best fren and also A spend on him a RM100 cakes and jugs of beer... and also come W to settle... H only can accept the true tat he has wife and must bless A n S together....

and it has end so called happily but..... we really bless A as he is a good guy n scare da bitchy S will betray him.... bless u A (though i am not so close to him...hehe)

This is part 1 of my dramatic life nowadays

But i am tired,...
so will try to update the next story da next day or maybe later la

Well...to tell da ppl out there

I really cant trust guys... as there is too much of real story happen around me.... i am tired to hear and see

I really hope i can get someone true love but i wont put too much hope... as i rather love my family and myself than a GUY

Well hope couples hv a good life and be reality to some circumstances don be blind in love... as it kill u da faster than any other thing

Please differentiate the perceptual and the rational

Romantic doesn't mean anything coz we are in a reality world

is not tat i wan to be a negative thinker.... but still need to be consider...It kills...

Well i am tired need a rest

2007-12-21T18:08:00.000+08:00

Blackie Day

ARGH..... a SUEY day for me...Y?
Let me tell u the story

Me and Jasmine (colleague) went to klang bayu for meeting client... but one of my client was stuck in some other place, so i hv to meet here up somewhere in Tesco (bukit tinggi)

So when i reach there...was quite blur bout da direction....
so jz stop by at da petrol station... after da tel conversation.....
i start my journey....And this SUEY thing has happen

I over drive on top of the divider and my whole car was shaking terribly
so for safety purpose....Jasmine has ask to go down from da car n check

Go down...See

MY TYRE PUNCTURE and MY CAR BOTTOM HAS DENTED

WTF!!!!!

Cal for help... and thnx LORD....Frannie's brother Frankie has come to safe us...(Thank you very much) after all da process of fixing bek da spare tyre.... he has bring us to da nearest Tyre shop to change a new tyre...

Was struggling when i am changin da tyre as my other 3tyres are from GOODYEAR but this is MICHELIN... so scare that it cant attach to each other.... but after some conversation v my dad... i hv decided to change.... as there is no more resources.... so bcoz of safety purpose again... i hv ask them to check my alignment,balancing,engine and ti cost me RM200!!!! HAIZ

Well.... Frankie was kind, he fetch us to the public bank to withdraw money.... after withdrawing out my money.... on the way bek to da tyre shop... sth happen again...WAT???

His car engine burn and smoke keep coming out from da bonnet

.... by force we need to come down from da car.... open up da bonnet smoke is so strong and black oil is keep leaking..... so he has to cal da foreman to check on it....

as we are on da half way bek to da tyre shop... we have accompany him to wait for da foreman but he has called his mother to fetch us bek to da tyre shop../.. and they was so bz as tmr is da Chinese Christmas.... so we need to do sth name"tang yuen"(for eating one)

end up their mother is da rescuer.... and THANK YOU SO MUCH to FRANNY,FRANKIE,and the MOMMY!!!

without the help of u... i will be lost

Thanx again and thanx da LORD who send us da angels....

Though is a terrible day....but i always believe that it will end with happiness as we have the Saviour ....Lovely FATHER...

THANK YOU SO MUCH

2007-11-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!!Update

I am 22 la

Have been celebrating a superb bday party with me crazy buddies

I hv resign la
Going to new company 'Super Pages' on the 3rd of Dec

I have instinct sooner i will be in love
Wahaha.... seriously feel like goin to have some realtionship soon, waiting for it... hope is the first and last... n of course is a good one....wahaha

My wish for this year bday is...
I wan someone who I love and he loves me...wahaha

Happy bday to myself

photo is pending...

2007-10-05T19:28:00.000+08:00

New Hair Look

3rd October 2007
(Like it So Much)

Sexy

Adorable

Stupid

Normal

Well been keeping long hair since I am 12 yrs old... till now ad 10 yrs
This is the first time I have make this serious decision to cut a short hair

But I am so happy.... Spend little but I receive bunch of praising....wahaha so happy neh!!!

2007-09-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

Convocation (16th September 2007)

Hooray.... Finally i have officially graduate la... I am so so so happy... on tat day i have receive my very first bouquet of flower which is the mixture of lily and roses from my family.... oh ya n my favorite Snoopy v a graduation hat... so cute

In our life... there is 4 things the family and friends couldn't miss to attend... which is the 21st bday which i hv a wonderful one and i am glad and thnx to my family as well to hv tat.... the 2nd one is the graduation la.... hahaha Yeah my lovely family and frens have attended... i am so happy neh

It is a very rush but memorable day lo.... I hope I can experience it again but.... is quite hard.... Well the next one will be the wedding la.... wahaha i am thinking will i get marry for my this life or not man.... hope tat GOD wont forget me to send someone is really onto me lo.... hehehe,The last but not least of course the end of everyones ya.... funeral(don talk bout tat, is sad things ya...)

Well, of course pictures are available ya....
VIEW:

This is me with the robe and graduation hat la
PROUD FOR MYSELF
HA....

The most appreciate one of course MY LOVELY PARENTS (so blur but i like this pictures)
Thnx for giving me the chance to study and graduate
Much Much Love.... MUACKSSSS

Bravo
This is an action of SUCCESS!!!!
YEAH

2007-08-21T21:33:00.000+08:00

New Born Baby--- Whitey (MBM4362)

My Baby has born today21st August 2007 which is my new car(Myvi, white) la...Today has drive her bek from my working place... I am so nervous till my leg oso shaking... n hallelujah i has safely reach home...i am a lousy driver.. really hope tat i can able to be an expert one day....God Bless

After i came home as need to park inside Court 10 n of course need to apply for parking la... It cost me RM210...for 4 mths n advance payment lo

So, I drove my landlord- Angel with me from our place to my taipan to withdraw money then go to the management office to apply parking pas...Wah, I can tell tat she is terrified v my driving skill la... I keep sayin sry to her... feel so paisei coz i am so lousy n dangerous driver ya.... I realy pray on nth happen on me and the car man ....

God Bless Me Everyday!!!
I need to brush up my driving skill
Who willing to sacrifice n practice with me ya? Thnx much lo...Wahaha

Bless me to be an Expert Driver!!!

2007-08-17T17:30:00.000+08:00

hihi... I am back

Today i would like to post sth which happen last Friday...hehe I noe is hilarious to be post a last week incident.... but then i am quite a bz la.... wahaha Last Friday 10th August... I went with Iris, Yng, Susama and Catherine to Ipoh for a Makanan trip ya.... da food is damn damn damn damn super good n delicious....it can be say tat is the best food i ever taken ya... wahhaa exaggerate abit la.... coz need to upsell it oso la.... but seriously la the food there is cheap n delicious and superb nice la.... got chance go n hv a try man.... u wont regret...hehe... i feel myself like an advertiser wahaha

Ok... here is some pictures tat we have taken during our wonderful Ipoh trip....

Let's view

This is our first supper in Ipoh... Old town

da chicken is superb delicious....
my saliva is leaking wahaha...
This is da 'Nga Choy Gai' v' Yue Guang Hap' and ' Zhu Yok Yun'
Wonderful supper rite!!! Go n get a try man!!!!

Okay!!!
this is their Dim Sum...
Well it look disgusting coz it has ad finis ya!!!
We enjoy da food till forgot to take pictures....
Wasted neh!!!
But their Dim Sum is 100x better than KL la
Got to try man
ngek ngek ngek!!! (Thnx to Yng who bring us around during the trip and let us enjoy the traditional food there)

Well.... so sad we only take this two pictures for our supper and breakfast... the others we hv totally forgot of take la... Sad neh... well i noe i have chance to go there and makan still ... so i will surely take some pictures n show here ya!!! wait lo hehe

Another main purpose we went there is coz of the summer concert la... tat one is oso a big Boom for our nite ya.... is really fantastic nite.... I have promise myself no more concert party,... but will i do enjoy and somemore it is FREE wahaha... The theme of tat day is "Wu Dong" means "Dance"... wah is so suitable to me man.... n i have a crazy nite there oso la.... wahhaa

This is the Summer Concert which held in Padang Ipoh la

The gals during the Ipoh Trip... Brave leh
(Thnx to WeeSin who drive us there)

One more person to thank is .....

Our Fren... So Mei la
( she is really a tour leader who take us from east to west man...thnx Much)
we have take some nice n funny photo in her house

Let's view

Taken in So Mei's place v payjamas after our breakfast Dim Sum
Pretties from left (Wee Sin, Me, Susama, Yng, Iris)
Hehe...portrait ya

This is the kitchen la
Ha well she(So Mei) is the host... see wat a good host ya....
haha

The Funny Photos...Wahaha

Well.. I have a nice weekend
Thank You

2007-08-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

A day full with story...

04 August is Yng Yng bday...

HAPPY BDAY YNG YNG!!! yo yo yo

05 August is da last day Choosn Syen in KL

WE WILL MISS U MUCH

Okay let start the story....

Friday 03/08/2007 was Yng yng 20's bday... we have celebrate v her in this Mexican Restaurant Las Carettas inUSJ( as i am stayin here now... so normally our dinner time will be hang around this area...haha) this is wat i hv suggest to them as it is easier for us to head off to KL poppy... (haha of course got next round beside the dinner mah... we so young) hehehe....So around 10 of us (gals+2 guys) has illegally enter poppy as the limit age is 21... but our bday gal is jz a 20 yrs old lady ... but somehow we have safely spend a happening nite there...we have trumpet yng yng with Chivas (3 seconds... but i think we have drag it to about 6 seconds...wahaha).... but luckily our bday gal has fully enjoy her nite.... this is da main thing we need to gv her in the bday man... haha

Saturday 04/08/2007... this is the last Choon Syen stay in KL la,... he is leaving to Johor for a better future... We willl really miss u Choosn Syen.... I am really sad tat he is goin to leave us man .....

My dear Choon Syen,

We will really miss you so so much ya.... still remember those day tat u are so quiet till everyone is not dare to go near u.... ur attitude is so cool and calm and boring... we even dunno wat u are thinking and wat to talk to you... but i think we have change u rite? He become a very optimistic youngster... he is no more boring but bring lots of fun to us... and dare to do wateva stupid thing tat we ask him to do... he has really change... happy to see a happy guy like you!!
Still remember one of these day... it was raining superb heavy and it is a saturday... but coz of the rain i have to stuck in my office for 2 hours till 5 sth... tat time i was alone.... thunder and rain has really terrified my nerve.... but my dear choon syen... he has purposely drive from Sunway to USJ jz to pick me up... TQ so so so much... i really appreciate it!!!

In Yng's bday... he has also really enjoy himself... he is not a clubbing kaki and can say nvr been to a club last 1 yr in KL... but i think is also coz of us... he be in club more often now.... he is a very funny dancer wahaha (think back also feel like laughing loud)....

We really appreciate this fren.... I think the one who miss him 100% one will be Iris and Yng Yng... they are the one tat see him change and see him grow after all the unhappy incident... he is a guy tat we will alwaz treat him as a 'sister' as he is really really fun to mix with n joke with....

Choon Syen... Wish u all the best in the future and we wil miss u much much

Do Take Care yourself and happy alwaz ya!!! Cheers!!!

Again...Happy 20th bday Yng Yng....

p/s: pictures pending.....;-)

2007-07-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

I am back!!!

Wahaha...nvr blog for a months... and i am bek today

I hv move out from my lovely Ridzuan condo for two weeks lo...
i been moving in to USJ court 10 the 15th July 2007
n from tat day on my life have change.... wahaha

I hv waited almost 2 weeks for my streamyx to be fix... and finally today the monday it has done...
I am no more bored in this lovely sweet room la.... n can start to chat v my fren which is inside the computer...wahaha

well.... is jz a month but lots of thing has change...
I found a way to leave a better life in my future... I hv start a biz in 07/07/07. I hope tat it is a sucessful start of my life ahead

Meanwhile... i oso hope tat thru this biz i can help my family and frens...beside oso can serve my lovely GOD...

Welll till here... U know la been while nvr online at home liao so lots of fren wanna chatv me leh....wahahah ok la.... will be update tmr

TATA!!!

2007-07-09T15:57:00.000+08:00

070707

It is a date i have change my life and my future....

I suppose to post this blog last two day... but was actually bz on moving my stuff to my new place which is in USJ court 10... hehe

Besides i am oso busy to arrange a good path to start my new future as called my career... has to alwaz meet up v partner till da late nite and havin loads of classes to attend...

I think everyone need to be change... but it is jz the matter of time... i think i can consider lucky as my life change in the moment tat i need it so desperately

Can i predict my future is a wonderful future? i think i cant....
But i will do my very best to meet my goal in da very short period

i believe tat IF I BELIEVE I CAN MAKE IT....it is a chance tat the god has send to me
THNX...

2007-06-12T04:01:00.000+08:00

DESPERATE?

hello!!!

wats da different of desperate and making frens

ugly gal like me makin fren is DESPERATE

n sexy gal or pretty gal only can deserve for making frens v others?

wat logic is this?

ugly gal like me go out v a guy i met first time is cheap n desperate?

n sexy gal n pretty gal go out v first time met guy is they deserve n not desperate?

wat logic is this?

i speechless but only can say tha who has say this are shallow

pretty gal can make fren...
if ugly gal like me did such thing i am only deserve a word... DESPERATE!!!

so i can say i forever wil not get a guy... coz i jz DESPERATE to get someone only

2007-05-12T16:26:00.000+08:00

Hi there

wahaha...

My holiday has end...
Comin monday (14th May 2007)... I will be a training sales consultant in Cambridge ICT computer learning centre which is under Progenius Point Group.

Wahaha... i will be a trainer or so called " teacher" soon (need to behave liao lo)
I need to face the student's age between 6 to 60++

I am happy with my salary oso lah... hope is a nice job and have a group of nice and friendly collegue lah

Anyhow... wish me all the best la.... i have to step into reality and earn my own money lo

ALL THE BEST NICOLE!!!!

2007-04-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

ARGH....

I am so so so useless.... i have been so lost for almost a month after graduate
I try n do my very best to find a job but is not tat easy...argh someone help me

I am suppose to be on my bed now... but i dunno wats wrong with me.... i sdnly think of a lot of nonsence... i feel tat my fren is slowly go far away from me coz most of my closer fren has started their working life only left me lepaking here....

I feel myself so lonely at nite, then i start thinking of HIM... i noe tat if i tell my fren about this they will sure scold me again and myself oso will feel stupid coz it is really not worth to think about HIM anymore... everytime i read da sms he has sent to me, i really feel like cryin out loud.... Y HE WANNA TREAT ME LIKE A WHORE?? I AM NOT, PLS I AM NOT...

haiz... gals are alwaz a biatch jz like me...

maybe i am too lonely or dunno wat lah.... i hope there is an angel to come over to protect me n be together v me... i am so scare of loneliness nowadays... y till now nobody exists in my life....

even i am a tough or independent gal but i stil an ordinary human being... i really really need someone to care n love me.... but y guys alwaz tot tat i am those CHEAP gal???

i really feel like cryin now n hope there is a carton of beer to let me drunk n don wake up for a year!!!!!

WHEN IS MY ANGEL APPEAR???? I REALLY NEED IT NOW!!!!

2007-03-24T20:31:00.001+08:00

Graduate

WAHAHA... finally, the hard work of three yrs... i am now a Bachelor Degree Student

Result announcement was ytrd 23 March 2007 n i am one of the luckiest coz i pass my degree...
here to say sorry to those who nvr pass... i feel so sad that they do not graduate with us... sigh.... esp one of my good fren... she is so smart and hard working but she fail.... i hope the coll has make some mistake and gv her another chance... Nai Ma i will pray for u ok!!!

Okay!!! heres are some pics to show.... we have pass throuch alot of sweet, sour, bitter and spicies... and today here we come another batch of Bachelor Degree holder BD17 forever....

From Left: Hui Ling, YenZ, Gelina, Jasmine and me
The closer frens in the coll...
Miss Y'all Lotsssss......

From Left: Iris, Jasmine, FoongLan, me, Hui Ling and Ivy
The alwaz study group.... no t include me lah of course
Wahaha

Me and Jacky
(he is the one accompany me when i am in a very damn down mood....thanx so much Jacky)
Love You!!!

Unwanted Fren forever--Keong
(Wei Lynn not there...sigh)
Love this fren so much... easy to bully wahaha

Dennis and me
(My good fren... u are WINNER... he is LOOSER)
OKAY!!! u will get a better one
We will love u alwaz

The BD17
Finally... we make it
BRAVO

Me and bro- Joe
( I will miss u bro... he is the best bro ever...)

Me and Jasmine
(good fren... she is a though gal man!!!)

Me and Hui Ling
(Love u fren)

... Graduate ...

2007-03-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

Dream

Today is the first day no more goin bek to Hotshoes for internship, but actually need to go bek as an assistant role to help up my boss on following some shit lah....

suffering in pain so went to bek and take nap.... b4 woke up.... I have this dream

Venue: Hotshoes (i think i too commited to this stupid office or maybe i have scare of this place)
/different deco between reality and my dream/
Time: after working hour
People involve: Cheryl (C), Thingthing (T), Wati (W) , Alvin= Ben (the guy i wrote in the previous blog, his name is Alvin but in dream his name i sBen), my father and me

In the so called hotshoes office, every one is packing to go home, me and T suppose to follow C cars ( in reality actually i have work v C n T last few day for an event, so i think tats y they are in my dream, T n i was same like an intern and we alwaz tumpang other collegue car, so is in my dream as well), in sdnly C said has to stay bek as one of their collegue who is Alvin "Ben" which has send to other branch in somewhere need to come bek for some business purpose and she is good fren of him and she need to meet him.( in relity is wendy introduce me this so called Ben... haha)

We stay bek and i start to worry coz i don wan to see him anymore, but he once again come to HOTSHOEs, wat is it happen wei???? Sdnly i found out tat my arm is bleeding and like a flower which dangling and bleeding (da flower is exactly like the flower which make by the sculpturist which we have hired for my last two days event, and i think it is bleeding because i watch too much "Heroes" coz da bleeding style is like one of the scene) , besides i was wearing one of my "timberland" shirt which is black in color and with a big milo (i think) stain jz rite in the middle of my shirt.

I called my dad n inform tat i will be bek home late, as need to wait for someone, the sdnly my dad ask me to ask the Ben help him to buy newspaper (jz now talk on phone v T, she has mention she is too boring and wan to get herself a newspaper), then i ask Y.. then i only knoe tat my father is Ben's boss...and Blah Blah Blah ( but my feeling is I WONT GO N ASK HIM TO BUY MY DAD NEWSPAPER COZ I DON WAN TO SEE HIM)

In reality, if i stay in office i must have things to work, so as usual i went into the store room move this n that, when i came out from the store i saw him was standing with other hotshoes staff and talking or discussing i don noe, then i saw him and look at him a while... and i start my work again.... after tat actually i jz saw his side face.... n i think he has look at me (haha)

And sdnly the scene change to my kitchen and W is inside and i tell her i am so angry tat Y i will meet him again somemore in Hotshoes... then W oso tell me about last time she oso like tat (coz W like to tell me her stuff with Hotshoes ppl)

Phone ring and I come bek to reality and start blogging here lah
The first thing i think is tat Y I WILL DREAM ABOUT HIM FOR ALL THE PPL!!!!Argh.....

Wat a weird dream rite... really cant explain

Actually, after the blog which i wrote previously i have meet him once in Valentine with my and his frens, then i have oso accidentaly meet him one time when i am in Malacca coz he oso from Malacca ma, it was happen during the CNY and when i say Hi to him he nvr gv me a damn... is hurt haiz

So after all this happen... i alwaz will think to miss cal him or call him out but i refuse to do tat... coz i am scare tat he wont reply me and ask me tat who am I.... so jz has to follow bek my own lifestyle.... STAY ALONE!!!!! wahaha

Anyway, wat is the message of this dream i have no idea but i think i wont meet him anymore, coz ppl tell me tat if sth happen in the dream and i say out, it wont be happen anymore and i choose to blog n say out coz i don think i wan to meet him anymore oso... coz i only see him for bout three times if let say i like him i feel ridiculous y not jz forget rite and leave a better life rather than thinking someone tat i really dunno, even a HI oso nvr say b4 wahah

Okay.... need to take shower.... Jasmine is here in joyee's house... so later wan to go have dinner with them

ciao

2007-03-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

Saturday

Hi there... after my show off blog
i have been years nvr touch this blog ad...
i am so bz n tired to blog as my day alwaz go on the same... it is fucking not interesting...

Well as usual, every thursday i still club( is my hobby, try to reduce ad la)
This thursday i went to Maison again, i am so sad that actually i am not easily get attracted by any guy... i hv no idea y.... am i ugly ( my fren say u look average), am i too fat (my boss tell me... u see da kedai runcit wife, so fat, oso get a husband).... but things i wan is not like tat... i am so frastrated that actually guys who meet me not really accpect me as my look n my body... this is hurt ( this is not my fault)

haiz... but i cant blame anything,,.. this is wat GOD has given me... the only thing i can do is jz ACCEPT!!!! grh..... hate my life so much... things keep changing but my love life still da same.....

HATE ARH>.......

anyway....wish all the lovers love forever..... muackssss

2007-02-22T18:21:00.000+08:00

I am Bek

wah... i am so so so so bz lah
No time to blog ya....

hmmmm...... Firstly GONG XI FA CAI!!!!! is the 4th day of new year ya
ok lets post sth interesting happen la

Valentine I get THREE flowers wei
this is da first time i got this chance to tipu guy to get me flower wahaha
but da feeling is damn nice.... coz i can prove one thing i still attractive wei wahaha

ok tats it

jz wan to show off
wahaha

Red Rose

Roses took the day after...so look cacat
ngek ngek ngek

2007-02-04T03:16:00.000+08:00

I Done Something Wrong

Wednesday... the boring day... find da whole world no one wanna accompany me for clubs....

One of my fren came n visit me who i hv ask to club v me but she refuse as goin for an interview da next day.... so it happens tat one of her boy fren cal her for club as well.... she refuse oso

but i am itchy kaki so i really wan to find someone to accompany for club... so my fren ask me to follow him.... da first thing come to my mind is " NO MAN!!! go club v a stranger and my fren is not there oso" but still i am struggling as i really need a hyper day!!!!

At the end i follow him.... a person i not even noe for 1 min

First impression to this guy is damn quiet n nvr talk much.... as a "So called fren" i try to crap alot of nonsence to talk to him... but he only gv me an ans according to my question... NERD rite!!! but i like this kind of guy... is like so not bad and pleasant!!!!

so we depart n go till setapak n fetch his fren... so of course i hv talk nth to him....

reach thai club... da most "lala" place i alwaz refuse to go but if in da mood still can layan (hehe)
so we start drinking listening to others talking.... he start da conversion " u feel boring come out v me"... i give him da ans" yes, u are too quiet n i duno wat to talk to u".... situation goes bek to silent

Finish drinking... his fren drunk n his gal taking care of him for a while.... so he went out from da club of course i need to follow him lah... coz he is so called my fren lo

Then he start telling me about his ex- gf who has jz broken up v him 1 mth ago.... so i jz tell him " don think too much... no gal wont die" then keep talking

In the car... he fetch his frens bek... so me and him again in da car...
He tell me all his thing from family till his gf... and so happen one of my fren oso his gf.... wat a coincidence... but who cares!!!!

So... during the conversation i feel tat this guy is so so so pleasant and i hv kind of like him.... wahaha bitchy leh... but is comfortable to talk to him ( really is my feeling )

he need to go for work so ask me to accompany him... well when u feel comfy with someone n can talk alot alot of thing so i jz say ok la.. n he seems pity oso!!!!

When i follow him to da office... still peace and warm.. talking , joking, talk bout his work and blah blah blah

then he start telling me" u said i am easy to trust ppl, y u oso so easy to trust me"... i tel him" coz i feel tat u are pity ma, so jz gv u accompany la... if u dare to do anything to me i will kil u"
WAt a childish conversation rite!!! but is so nice when u in my situation coz is a comfy and warm feeling to me!!!! da love like blooming... wahaha (think to much actually)

but he has made me dissapointed as he think tat i am a ONE NITE STAND gal

story goes like tat....
He start lying on my shoulder, on my head as i am sitting n lay on da chair.... i am ok first as maybe he need some console or maybe he still in heart pain so jz borrow a shoulder only lah ... ... so i jz let him lay on me.... but slowly i think it is not a good think and i start to wake him up to finis his work.....lately he said he want to go home as no more mood to work... so we depart from his place n went home

Reach home... sleeping
He called... but i nvr ans n gv him a miss cal... he cal me again
He start asking me

He(H), Me(M)

H: If jz now i really did sth bad to u, u really will kill me?
M: Yes, but don think too much, is over
H: (asking my fren who has be in a realtionship v him)
M: Don think too much, she is over
H: ACTUALLY u oso WAN jz now rite
M: (thinking) YA !! but i control myself, but is over don think
H: Ok
M: Ok lah, go n sleep
H: ok nite

Da next day, i did ajak him to club, n ask him to gv me an ans b4 5 ,, but he nvr so i msg him
M: feelin better? sleeping ya? don think too much, chill ya
H: Working now, then leh? go where tonite?
M: Goin clubbing, wanna come?
H:Don wan lah, do others thing i wan la, u want?
M: wat things? i wan clubbing only
H: told u last nite ald, BAD thing
M: no to everything but only clubbing
H:Don know wat u mean
M: I mean i wan clubbing only
H:then bad thing leh?
M: ( no more ans to him)

After tat he oso nvr reply me or cal me

Actually i am really sad... as i have alil bit liking him as he is so pleasant n sincere
But i am angry v myself as well coz i hv ans him da wrong thingy,... and make him feel tat i am not a good gal but a bitch

So actually i am hoping sth to happen,... but it is no more da chance as he nvr sms or cal me after this all incident....

Actually i wan to kiss him only... not da sex thingy but he think tat i need SEX
my fren tell me better stay away from him as he is taking advantages on me only
so haiz... even though i am hoping sth
but i noe there is nth will happen....
jz let it FLOW

Nicole stay cool... u will get someome really worth wei..... PEACE!!!!!

2007-01-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

dissy....

Dissy stand for dissertation

OH my Lord... pls help me.....
i hv start my dissy but hehe still in part one n i cant proceed to part 2 anymore coz i hv no idea on it... well my part one oso cant finis wei!!!! haiz

I have start talking v my parents... i am so happy!!!!
I think family is alwaz family.. they are no hate between each other but LOVE.... n i am awake actually sometimes i nvr appreciate wat they gv me but be so demanding... i am too wilful i shouldnt.... i should think of my dad's situation n no more asking him to burden so much thing on me as i am da age for work n should pay them bek for a easy and happy life.... sry dad n mom... i will be mature n think like an adult but not demanding

Last wed the 17 jan2007I crash my collegue car... n she has treaten me to pay her 7K.... i am so horrified when she keep dumbing all the faults to me....
All my collegue stand by my side and tell me not to pay her any cents... i am so glad that when i am facing this kind of probs they are still standing firm v me.....

All my collegue tell me tat i no need to pay as she ask me to buy her personal thingy and jz dumb her car key to me... n they said she should be bare the consequences when she gv me da car key... n this is jz a accident is not tat i wan to bang her car....she treat me like a slave but all my collegue tell me tat not to feel guilty coz i hv pay her RM400 for my guiltiness... tats enuf

she ask me to get her lunch and wan me to pour for her and send in front for her like a queen... i am so hate but i did it.... my collegue tell me stop serving her coz no one will sympatise me but laugh at me like a stupid.... so today i start to reject her

I have no more respect to her is bcoz when she scold all da FUCKs word in front of me and treaten me and even an event director also feel like slapping her... i understand how fras will she be coz she has no more car.... but she is too over n wan me to pay 7k and burden her car rent for 2 weeks... besides she need VIOS.... she is taking advantages on me!!!!!

Well i noe tat i do sth wrong.... but everyone tell me tat she should not be so crazy for asking me to pay 7k and da car rental,... so they jz ask me to ignore her n reject wateva she ask me to do... my boss oso tell me to stand firm for my right to say NO!!!! i am no more scare of her coz i noe there are supporter behind me n i have pass this stupid shit things tat happen

She actually has a bad image in the company and all my collegue feel tat she is a person tat like to bully da weaker... so jz don gv a fuck on her.... hehe,... thanx collegues

I hope tat after this incident my year will be go well n peacefull..... wat comes around goes around.... hope tat after bad things happen good things will be comin

Thanx Lord for the lesson for me to learn.... i am awake now to be no more stupid and be aware... n no more itchy butt to drive ppl's car

2007-01-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

Y this kind of bitch will exist in this world

Really not feel like post on this matters, but i really really cant stand this BITCH anymore
Wan to get ppl's help but still bitch on u, jz let me tell da sequence she bitch on till i cant tahan from the first day

Bitch:B Me: M
1. one of my collegue dance in front of me like a " bitch"( he is a gay. try to imagine)
B: u see u like him, so hiao
M: wat u mean, hiao or yao(shake)?
B: HIAO lah...
M:(heart) WAT DA FUCK!!!!
M: Y u sdnly say like tat, am i?
B: Yalah, so hiao like him
M: Yameh? am i? really arh?
B: YALAH alwaz one, so HIAO
M:(still tot she is kidding)... how hiao am i oh, in club sure will dance sexy lah, normal mah
B: NO, U NORMAL OSO HIAO liao
M: speechless ( thinking...wil a fren said tat u HIAO jz infront of u... IS DAMN FUCKING HURT)

Damn fucking boh song... tell my close fren... when they hear it all oso go speechless and tell me... i tot da HIAO one suppose to be her.... go n see her frenster...

Collegue:C
2. My collegue ask me where is the ahsoh( a cleaner in my office)
C: where is ah soh?
M: dunno i think she is in third floor
B:( normal da B like to kepo) No lah. second lah
M: yameh , dunno maybe in second floor
B:( point on me with her second finger...tell me rudely) NAH... tell u liao second floor la
M:oh, ok lo i dunno mah

Fuck her, tel mah tel lah, y wan to point on me like my fault??? I am not da follower of ahsoh oso...sescond floorma second floor lo... point on me for FUCKS izzit... damn CHYBYE

3. Goin to club( in the car)
she was asking my fren who is driving to go till summit n drive her fren!!!! use ur brain dn ask me.... ask my fren coz he is driving
B: SO HOW!!! WAN TO FETCH OR NOT
M:(talk softly.. point at my fren in front) u ask him lah... is not my car ya
B: ( angry and boh song look) chhh.... FORGET IT LA!!!!

Wats wrong v me again??? u wan to ask ppl drive ur fren u ask urself lah!!! is not my car rite??? if ppl not willing to help u oso cant blame anyway... it is not on da way oso... pls be understanding lah... go in to da petrol station... in da shop my fren said... " Wah da way she talking to u is so rude!!! like all is ur fault!!!"
M: ya, i have been tahan her for mths... i really dunno how i make it!!!!!

Boss: S
4.In the phone conversation in my boss car v da B ( is 5.45 in da evening)
B: (phone) oi u comin bek or not?
M: yup, on da way
B: still come bek for wat ad goin to 6 lah
M: Erm wait ya i ask....
(talk v my boss which i damn fucking scare of her)
M: erm... so are we still goin bek to da office?
S: Ya, we are goin bek, Y?
M: oh no lah.... B asking me
S: Y she wan to go bek v u izzit?
M: erm... ya... erm
(go bek v da B converstation)
M: I am goin bek office
B: WATDA... ask oso dunno how to ask... Jz tell her u wan to go home la
M: erm.... ok lah wait
(talk v boss)
M: erm.... do u actually need me to go bek to the office?
S: Actually no need liao lah, Y?
M: no, coz i am jz staying opposite only, so if no need go bek office, so i tot of goin bek home
S: Oh u wan me to send u home? where?
M: Ya... jz opposite
S: OK
(V B again)
M: ok lah i go bek first
B: ok bye

wah!!!! is not i dunno how to ask...when u feel scare v someone do u dare to ask her to send u home when it is still a working hour which is 5.45.... it is possible to go bek to office to continue da work as it is a event company till late nite... Y daB is so concern as she don wan to wait for me to go bek to office and come home late... FUCK lah.... in this situation i am wonder how WRONG AM I??? DO she concern bout wat am i thinking???? WAT A FREN LIKE HER?????

5. reach home call B for explanation
M: hey, is not tat i don noe how to ask.... i am scare to ask
B: aiya,... u talk like all my fault...
M: speechless...
B:(RUDE) Wat for u calling me... don talk bout it liao lah
M: No jz remind u dn forget to bring my book, thanx
B: WAH,, U ARH put my the book in the office which borrow under my name one
M: Arh, i put on the table mah... is ok one la... who one to steal oh?
B: (RUDE) But is dangerous mah.... later ppl steal how... NEED TO PAY ONE U NOE!!!!!
M: arh???? who wan to steal a book???

FUCK FUCK FUCK... who wan to steal da books which is on my working table??? somemore i will bare the responsibility OKAY if really go lost!!!! u jz one to burst on me coz i use ur name in the phone cal when my boss is there issit??? TELL U.... NO one blamming u!!! u sensetive BITCH... wat to blame on!!!! PUBLIC TELL ME?????

6.At home(phone call)
B: U WAN ME TO TAKE DA BOOK TO UR PLACE OR TMR U PICK UP FROM ME?
M: is ok later u come bek u miss cal me!!!! i will go down
B: ok
(5mins later call again)
B: OI, u got small change or not?
M: got, how much u wan?
B:RM15 la
M: Ok
(Reach... miss call, go down by staircase)
B: come to da sell BAO there ah
M: ok
(knock da cab's door, but she ad pay)
B: WAIT FOR U ALSO USELESS LIAO la
M: (heart) wah... i am taking money for u to pay leh.... somemore i take staircase i come down one leh, scold like tat like i don wan to pinjam her like tat...

Seller: S
7. buying tao fa(soya)
S: wat u wan?
M: tou fa with ginger
(ready... but da thing is in white)
M: i wan ginger
S: ya is ginger, we mix it with sugar
M: arh... can ya!!!! so will hv air lo!!!!!
S: can ya... now we all do like tat one
B: AIYO!!! Y U SO LIKE KATAK BAWAH TEMPURUNG one!!!
M: (thinking) tot u are an idiot in kitchen.... u noe anything meh?

No comment for her. i jz say thanx for bringin my books bek and go home

HAIZ!!! i really dunno how to face her anymore... sometimes feel like shouting at her n said cant u stop talking so rudely but u alwaz said tat i am rude to ppl ??? WAT TALK U????

If i really cant tahan anymore i think i will straight away tell her tat... wateva da words come out from her mouth is hurting!!!! n so kurang ajar!!!!

Ya the way u talk is like so smart... but sometimes i feel tat u hv no brain... alwaz said ppl like to follow wat ppl doin... atually u are da one alwaz follow on wat ppl say.... THINK B4 U TALK OKAY!!!! tats is not tat hard u really make me wan to BITCH on u here.... u deserve it.... u cant blame me!!!! i keep ur dignity till today coz i treat u as fren.... but u ruin it urself!!!!! ya i was so tahnkfull tat u help me alot of things.... but still ur attitude make me sick n tired... i need a power to wack u up n noe how to tell urself ... human like u still do wrong things... so don think tat u are alwaz RITE!!!!!

But i dunno y so many guys still go after her.... she is lucky?? she is pretty?? (i dunno la)
But guy can tahan i oso cant say anything is not my business oso!!!!

WAU I FEEL SO RELAX AFTER THIS BLOG!!!!
IF U DO EVER SHOUT ON ME I WILL STRAIGHT AWAY FUCK U OFF!!!! DON BLAME ME

2007-01-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

It hurts

I was sitting here alone again!!! Sometimes spend da time v urself is da most blessing life for da life but sometimes not

Frenship... this word keep spinning in my mind

Sometime is not tat i self pity... is like when u have given a strong helping hand but there is no response... maybe at da moment YES.... but slowly it has jz flow out of da mind and be forgotten by human... ppl oso said has to appreciate ppls which has help u in da difficult moment but i think i will not be da one ppl will remember alwaz but FORGOT!!! It sounds sad tat ppl need me only when they are sad jz for my accompany but when time past they found their happiness... me as a fren is no more alive and no more remembered.... SAD rite!!!

But well as da previous blog i said i will alwaz be v u my fren whenever or wherever they need... here jz to blah out my HURTS n SELF PITY!!!! I am not a good fren or maybe in my life there is no frenship forever coz there is no one will ever remember whether am i exist or not!!!

It may sound hatred but it is my feeling now... Hope for understanding

OKAY!!! i have blah all my shits here... i will be bek to HAppy Alwayz

BLESS Y'ALL!!!

2006-12-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

BACK

Been for a while nvr blog... coz i feel tat my day is almost da same

WORK... HOME.... WATCH SERIES.... SLEEP
wat a routine... so jz feel nth to blog up la!!!

I been smoking alot this few days... i dunno y... i think is da influnce of the office... but cant blame is myself don hv da will power to control myself... AM I A SMOKER? i also dunno coz i still can tahan wei!!! but don care lah.... jz do wateva i can do now.... LIFE IS SO SHORT!!!! wahaha

well!!! nowadays ppl around me keep talking bout DISSERTATION... but i haven start a shit oso... so i think i have to considered START it soon!!!!

CHRISTMAS is coming... da joyful day of da yr.... tot of not goin bek to hometown coz of an event... but hehe BLESS!!!! da job has cancel and i will be bek home on sat... MY LOVELY HOMETOWN I WILL BEK SOON YO!!!!

Seriously miss my home so much... even there is some conflict btw me n my family... but da joyful christmas and the bless of GOD... it will be recover with LOVE... so i am goin to celebrate da special day v my family

My sis has send me a msg asking me whether i am goin bek.... n i ask her Y??? she said she MISS ME... hehe i miss her oso lah..... actually i miss da food in malacca oso .... so this time go bek have to eat KAU KAU man .....

Well till here goin to bed... tmr kena wake up 6 sth for SenQ event in Mutiara Tesco.... good nite!!!

2006-12-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

spinal hurt --- Another bday party

I hv slip down previous sunday in SS15 from the stairs, and i hv hurt my back v scar and on the same week thurs i hv drop down from the chair as it was too high and i cant sit on it.... WTH i hv been falling down ***4 times in this Nov ***... n finally i hv really.... seriously... hurt my spinal and my back bone has go crooked and da stupid bone has expand my hip broder and so i look FAT... so now i hv to go bek to sinsei and urut for few times to straigthen my back bone... besides my hands oso get effected as my spinal has enter air and start to be strenghtless now... the sensei oso tell me tat if i nvr take care... my two hands cannot raise up anymore....WAH memang like handicap lo... so i hv to find one more day to go bek malacca and urut again... i don wan to be orang cacat....

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Ytrd on the way bek from malacca was damn fun n crazy.... it was traffic jam all da way from seremban but we are not mad and we are like crazier in da car... dancing... laughing....singing.... joking and do alot stuff of stupid thingy... it was really sampat but HAPPY

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02 Dec 2006 ( Chinese birth date)
my parents has held a bday party for me in my favourite restaurant "valley hill" (sth like this forgot liao)... All my relatives from KL and S'pore has atend and i was so happy as I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH.... coz everytime when come to gathering we will really go crazy and enjoy maximum and we noe we love the moment we gathered together..... DONT CHA hehe

Me n my two cousins are the last one who arrive malacca as we need to work lo... when i arrive my house is full of ppl and i feel so shy as let them wait for me as well da party helds... wahaha but i am happy to see them there... THANS MY DAD, MOM, UNCLES, AUNTIES, SIS n BROS... oh ya n my two little niece n nephew...

as i nvr bring bek any baju so da theme has set as" casual jeans theme".... (but all my cousin and sis have go n buy and pick some nice clothes jz for my party... oh i am sry but casual alwaz my first priority lah) well we dress nice n simple tat nite.... JEANS N SHIRT my favourite...

My dad has book a room v three tables and a Karaoke stereo.... the food is delicious and superb so it is my favourite restaurant lah... hehe... during the dinner... we toast as usual... shout as loud as our lung can come out and we has bottoms up the Red wine... it was funny as my cousin John has really bottoms up the first glass and he gone HIGH ( wahaha... John y so blurrrrr......) while the second tosting we have really bottoms up... it was damn happy as this is first time i can really drink in front my parents.... wahaha
but the things tat really go funny is my niece Ashley.... she cried coz of our loud voice( she is too young and she is not use to da toasting ceremony which need to shout our lungs out... wahaha) .... she keep sayin " I DON LOVE U ALL ANYMORE" v her cute voice and adorable sad look... love her so much... after tat i has go n console n tell her tat is kind of wishing n hug her... ( cant tahan she is so adorable)....

Karaoke session
Well... as i am the bday gal tat nite... my relatives have inquiry me for the first song and i hv sing a song from S.H.E (tittle: tian hui) although it is a sad song but everyone enjoy coz they don understand (wahaha)... but is nice then ok lah... the whole session is damn extreme and amazing... we sing our love song from S.H.E to Jay Chou to Eason chan and lots....

time past fast to 10pm as the restaurant need to close so.....

Cutting cake session
My parents has bought a pure cheese cake which is homemade and cost RM110... the cake is really fantastic n i love it so much... THANX.... we sing bday song... we take pictures.... i make wish... i cut cake and tats the whole session of cutting cake.... after tat my eldest cousin has cheted on me which she ask me to take photos v her... when i stand beside her,... i only realise tat they hv bought party spray which for christmas party and spray on me kau kau.... my whole body is covered with the red string and snow... it was really surprise.... THANX AGAIN

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the whole dinner nite is really wonderful and i really appreciate for the preparation of my dad n my mom... THANK YOU SO MUCH.... we love the moment we gather together.... the spirit of gather is jz like alwaz v us and we cannot even leave without each other... WE ARE REALLY A FAMILY.... i really love my family so much.... we really have the SPIRIT OF LOVE it was really amazing and unbelievable the love tat surround us.... thanx LORD tat bless the love spirit in the FAMILY.... "hey couz.... when is out next gathere man.... cant wait for it yo!!!!"

supper time
8 of us.... of course the young cousins lah.... we hv come to one mamak for some " teh n mee" seriously kl better but we still enjoy coz GATHER again wahaha... talk n talk n talk..... laugh n laugh n laugh n we hv end da supper at 3 morning .... and reach home we jz sleep coz we are really exhausted since da morning till da late midnite.... but some of us still awake till 5 sth only sleep lah coz they are playin games and i showing my france pic to my cousin....

THANX SO MUCH TO MY PARENTS N MY BROTHER SISTER and THE RELATIVES which really gv me a great and magnific party tat day and thanc for the present u all hv given me... i really love it so much... "all are my dream ya".... wahaha

I AM SO BLESS..... MY 21st CELEBRATION IS REALLY A BOOM TO ME

p/s: will upload da photo asap...

2006-11-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

Shhh...

I am so tired to talk v my parents nowadays.... Since the day i start my work in the HohShoes
I keep thinking whether i hv da rite placements or not... i really dunno

Da fucking is damn isolated... everytime when i wan to go for work or come bek from work i feel like crying... i feel myself so sad n helpless

Evey morning i need to take cab to my office and it cost me RM12 for a journey and if i cant get cab i will kena potong by the stupid cab in front of my condo and it will charge me fro RM20... WTF rite!!!!
n when it is time to go bek... i am start struggling to think whether it is a cab for me as there is too rural to get a cab as it is a housing area and no cab will enter unless CALL.... well CALL doesnt mean tat it will be a cab for u... so when come to no cab.... i really goin to cry coz i need to walk till da kelana jaya station for 25 mins to get a stupid cab... and now it cost me another RM12++ ( it is a pick time as everyone is goin home).... somemore there is damn isolated... there has lots of squarter which is aiming ur purse and snatch wateva they can... FUCK !!! this is da info i get from my senior

My dad ask me to ask them whether can get a car pool.... PLS !!! EVENT no such thing... they will go home at 8 or even start another meeting somewher till da late midnite.... how am i goin to follow them???

All the money i add up is mthly payment for a car? y don u jz gv me a car for convinnience and it will be ok to drive( no practice no improvement).... My mom is the one alwaz ruins everything ... i understand tat my dad is planning how to solve my probs and there is a possibility he will get me a car... but now comes to my mum... she alwaz ruin da plan.... ALWAZ... n when she talk to me i jz feel like ignore her.... sry to say tat but i really feel hatred sometimes

Is there a CARE when i get rape or i hv died coz of a car accident and u will noe wat is SAVE wat is NO!!!!! PLS lah is too late to be CARE!!! i hv my back hurt... it was so painful but i nvr tell them a single thing it will not works... they will jz ask me to apply some chinese medicine... so watsoeva no need to tell n i will take care myself....

My sis cal me today n i tell her tat i slip and hurt my backbone and goin for sinsei as my bek start to pain till my back bone nerve is suffer when i am sleeping... Now my mom cal me n ask how am i ... I really feel to tell i am not goin to die is ok .... but i nvr i still respect in answering her OKAY!!! and wateva she say to me i can only ans EMmmmm..... tats it feel so fake to talk to her sometimes

I feel myself kurang ajar but HOW!!!! sometimes i really feel sad when they are not in my situation but they make da decision for u..... when come da main idea n they refuse to gv u a good solution but jz ignore it.... n start to think of their own solution again which will not hv an ANSWER till da day end!!!!! WAT DA FUCK

OKAY !!!! till here... i think this is da damn angry blog i have ever write!!! maybe u al will think tat i am not appreciative or i am too demanding.... but come n see da place i train is totally disaster and i SCARE!!! now i will try to get another palcement

Thanx Gelina so much she keep trying to help me up in finding a better place for me.... no worries i wil think of it and gv an ideal ans to u ya.... Thanx again

I am using pink in my words coz i hate pink

2006-11-28T20:40:00.000+08:00

21st PhOtos

the celebrator for my 21st
(part of it nia)
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Another bunch of celebrator
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Photo cacated v Tourism student n Jas
( Normal lah... we like to be cacat... wahaha)
NOe Y??? TOO PRETTY LIAO
ngek ngek ngek
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"WANTED"
HUI LING
** i oso dunno wat happen to her**
hehe but is interesting this photo
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Tercapture after my shower
(sexy tummy... wahaha)
ACTUALLY DAMN GELI
when u goin to leave me!!!!!
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I think they are sending gift for me
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Another group photo again but still miss out someone
but is ok i think u all noe who are they
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UNWANTED GANG!!!!
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12 dingding...
My 21st bday cake, me and bunch of celebrator
THANX SO MUCH

21 st a unforgettable Bday v all the frens
Thanx again
LOVE
nic

2006-11-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

21st...

23rd Nov... Unforgettable day

morning went to Maya hotel for interview... but FAIL again... during the way home i was cryin coz i feel tat i am damn unlucky to get a intern....

come to kl sentral... sitting alone in da McD... havin filet-O(been long time nvr eat since i come to kl) and nuggets... tot of eatin can release my unhappiness but NOPE... i was strugglin for 1 n half hour to finish my makanan... during my makan... i cal julee n talk to her my situation and i cried again...

come bek around 5 sth... chit chat v my bro... he keep telling me not be too demanding as i asking my dad to get me a car as if i work in event management i need it... my bro is harsh n i noe feeling good and sad tat sometimes feel tat my family cant understand wat am i thinking and they like only thinking their own way ( not da car thingy but others)... i cried again

WAT a Damn 21st rite... I cried 3 times in my bday.... is quite a sad day for me.... i was not in a good mood for da whole day... but at da nite i still havin a party in poppy... was up side down my feeling

Nite

Thanx so much to all my frens tat celebrate v me

I hv held my party in poppy... the hot and pack club... so Nadia has keep rushing me for reservation.... so i hv make it 10 days in advance... hehe

It was fun and enjoyable day for me.... but still feel sad tat some of my fren cannot attend da party... but most of them has attend... it was touch and happy

it was so lucky tat da nite is not pack n our ppl has concur da whole club... tat was great... me and Nadia as usual stand up da speaker and dance... but da damn bouncer jz halau us down and tell us tat it is not allow to stand on da speaker.... duhhh, havin fun mah like tat oso cannot...boooo

i suppose to drunk but i didnt... coz i oso dunno y... but i still in HIGH mode wahaha
dance for da whole nite... entertaining my frens for dancing... chating and all sort of thingy lah...Hosting no choice.... wahaha (so mean)

but at the end of da party.... they are two of my fren drunk.... one of then is my best fren julee
wahaha.... ju u need to practice lo... wahaha

around 3 sth... the day has end we hv follow cars n meet each other in Horus... da mamak... makan, chit chat and play aroud... it was crazy....

after the supper.... me, jasmine and brian sitted on the beanch near da swimming pool... coz really not feel like goin home and i missing someone oso... so i tell the two of them bout my feeling... n jas has send him a msg tat i wan to drink with him ask him whether wan to join or not... i was thinking she will not dare to do this kind of thing... but i am wrong.... she dare n she send and he patah balik coz he has on his way bek to his hs liao....

when i was so happen keep talking v other fren who last joining us happily.... when da time i raise my head up i see him.... n da two of them ask so u still wan to drink and ask the other fren of my as well.... but he refuse to drink as he need to work da next day... so in my mind tat time is" RUN" so i jz follow my fren go home lah.... i am so scare and i think is not da rite timing... jas has cal me and my half way bek n scold me no guts.... but jas i dunno y i am scare n not yet prepare... i was regret coz it is really a damn good moment to express but i nvr... maybe is not da rite guy... even i still got strong feeling but ... haiz " i am sampat"

SO my nite is jz PEACE n have nth BOOM or FANTASTIC happen

but anyhow it was a great day.... n unforgetful day

at last... need to thanx wei lynn for loosing her clubbing vaginity to me and keong my best pals thanx for helping in arranging and collecting da money..... thanx to my this two fren.... we are UNWANTED GANG FOREVER!!!! love y'all

HAPPY 21st BDAY TO MYSELF

2006-11-23T02:36:00.000+08:00

My 21St Party

Been long time nvr blog... Firstly, i wanna thanx GOD for the wonderful arrangement...
The 22nd of Nov 2006, is my last semester 2 paper and the really last college exam paper.... and for the excuse of my 21st...i hv held a small gathering party in my place...

After the examination, it was around 3 sth... me, weilynn and jasmine went to pyramid to shop for the party stuff... walking around and around.... finish shopping and my stuff has finis buyin... so we have to go home and prepare for the party....

As my house does not have a proper stove to cook... me n weilynn has leave and went to jasmine house for cooking... during the preparation... i am so stress that so scare i cant handle da whole party... but luckily thanx so much tat wei lynn and jasmine is there... they help me up alot...
Me take care of the sphagetti, jasmine take care of the sandwiches and weilynn take care of the frying stuff... LYnn Lynn... u are a good cook ya.... wahaha

Time pass fast.... 8.30 pm is nearer but my house only got 4 guest which is hui ling, gelina, yanz and eliza which i have invite around 20+ ppl... i am so worried whether they are still coming or not!!! while i went down to buy ices... and the moment i reach home... keong and dennis was here... slowly my guest has jz follow da flow and reach my place... i am so proud of it coz i am the first time hosting party man... thanx fren for the support ya!!!!

My menu

1) Sphagetti with hot tuna
2) Pop-corn ( Chicken)
3) Nuggets
4) French Fries
5) Sandwiches
6) Pudding ( Thanx to Ivy for helping me with this dessert ya)
7) Nana De Coco and Longan ( End up we mix ivy's pudding with it, thats chun)
8) Dominoes ( aloha chicken and pepporoni beef)
9) My 21st Bday cake from frens

During the bday party, we are talkin n laughin... and i feel so happy when i see da situation as all my frens are mingle around and they take my place as their own home... the feeling was like " We Are Family"... Thanx so much my fren for attending my 21st

Today nite itself have one more party on in poppy which i hv invite more ppl than today as it is a farewell party... i hv held over my place is also bcoz some of my fren avoiding and strictly prohibited from clubbing... so sad.... but luckily da party is on in my place and we are havin fun n joy....

Okay... let say how they wish me happy bday lah
I was inside the kitchen cutting da pudding for my dessert... when the time i open my fridge the cake is still in the fridge.... while i am into my work tat time... i dunno who has take da cake without lettine me noe.... n keong come n ask me out... but when tat time i was thinking oh wanna take cake izzit, i noe in the fridge lah... so i go out... manatau da bday cake is ready there and they are singing happy bday song to me.... it was so touch and warm when they are givin me wishes...

WAH.... I AM 21st YA....I AM A BIG GAL.... BUT NOT OLD ... OKAY!!!! hehehe

I have a fun n joyfull bday party... thanx again my fren and this is our last day for college life....

LOVE U ALL.... AND MISS Y'ALL... TAKE GOOD CARE!!!

Well tmr still got party on... Hope it is fun and crazy nite...

2006-11-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

FALL

ytrd the 12th Nov was Brian's bday, so happen he has invite us for KFC and LUK LUK for his celebration...
After the celebration, we have went to the nearest pub... FLAME
It was fine the earlier nite... and the big screen is showing the most famous 2 teams football game...' liverpool VS arsenal'... our gang there is playin 'bing bong a' and everyone is HIGH... i found myself is quite a slow motion person... coz when everytime they point at me n shouted 'bong' i will jz loose my mind and shouted 'a'.... so obviously i need to drink da Black Label tat place there...
Reaching 1130... some of my frenn has surrender and jz rest on the sofa and some went to da toilet to clear da stomach of liquor... me as well....

time pass fast 12am come.... music on.... dance move.... is my nite....
i am so HIGH... feel like standing on the podium... so a coincident... da podium is jz bek of the sofa we sitted and da screen is jz behind the podium....
as usual i has stand up to da podium and dance happily.... when lights blinking in da pub.... and some of the footbal fans shouted for goals.... me... trip n fal straight to the bar's table... n hallelujah ... dennis has safe mylife.... n keong safe the bar's table... n me myself has noe nth.... but the only thing in my mind is.... I AM FUCKING EMBARRASING... shit ass....n now... my knee is hurt and have a damn big bruises... it is painful when i walk on the stairs...sigh

OMG... think of it i feel so miserable.... i fall twice this yr since my clubbin life have started on the early 2004... and i cant imagine tat i fall.... and brian tell me" wah, clubber fall down, cant imagine".... oh i am so so so damn shamed.... I wish i wont fall again...ecspecially on my nite.... LOOK FORWARD FOR IT... and hope tat all my fren will attend...

BLESS ME!!!!

2006-11-09T17:50:00.000+08:00

Moody day

Been few days i am so so so moody... I think is bcoz PMS and i feel tat everything tat happen beside me or on me which will easily make me feel frastrated and angry... I am sry fren tat i nvr mean it... is really my mood totally go down...

But sometimes i think bek... y i willl be like tat? i am so dissapointed coz when i really care bout someone... but they will jz leave me alone... it is a hard feeling to me... and i think i hv no high EQ

I told Nadia B4 tat i am so angry with someone coz she nvr ever think of me sometimes when i am really alone or i needed help... but she tell me... maybe i am an independent person so ppl out there will feel tat i can still survive when i am alone... YES i understand i will still survive but still i am so sad... i need attention sometimes but there is no attention on me... i only can make myself happy lah.. wat to do!!! ppl will think tat i got lots of fren... but NO!!! truly tell u...

I and hui ling no more close like last time... sometime i wonder!! frenship is jz like tat? when be with u longer time only can talk to u???when seldom see each other no more conversation??? when u with others u jz left me out!!! i am really fras... really... but i cant tell anyone... coz they will not stand by my side and jz tell me... aiya... now she no more same class v u mah, sure seldom talk lo.... but y? frenship really jz like tat? I am really tired of this kind of relationship i really feel inbalance and i pity myself sometimes... i really feel it... is kind of hard feeling...

I am listening to ' Tonight i Wanna Cry ' by Keith Urban... it is meanigful and my feeling now is totally exactly same as the lyrics but not bcoz of realationship v lover but frens.... when i listen to it i feel emo... haiz...

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
Theres pictures of you and I on the walls around me the way that it was and should have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Would it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

oOOo

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Neway lifes still go on... sry for grumbling here bout my fren... it maybe coz of my atttitude and oso i cant control myself so my fren will leave me in short time sry for showing my fras here... but i feel tat only this blog is my best fren to talkbout anything tat is inbalance on me.... GOD N BLOG ALWAZ MY BEST FREN.... THANX FOR ACCOMPANY ME!!!

2006-11-03T01:31:00.000+08:00

BACK

Yesterday the 1st of November... Keong invite me and my classmate for his bday party in V Garden Klang... There are 10 cars depart from Ridzuan... It is damn big event man...

Around 7.30pm we have reach klang... the first we see was " JUST MARRIED" so we start teasing him tat this is really his engagement or wedding party... wahaha so funny lah...

We have been teasing him since the day he invite us... coz it held in a restaurant and there are 5 tables for Taylor's student and other around 20 tables i think for his relatives and secondary classmate... it is a really huge Bday party

In the restaurant
We sing Happy Bday song to him... and toasting 'YAM SING" (it sound like wedding rite!!! hehe)
When he giving speech tat time... we all notice tat he was goin to cry coz his eyes is full of tears... Keong don lah so touch ya.... wahaha
But seriously... the food is good ya and we drink like HEAVEN wahaha...

His father and uncle were so funny keep asking us to drink and check on us whether we are drinking during the 'YAM SING' section on the stage...

KEONG U ASK UR RELATIVES TO BULLY US IZZIT??? COZ WE ALWAZ BULLY U IN THE CLASS... WAHAHA( joking nia )

We have end the party around 10 sth n we go bek one after another ... me and Jasmine has went to Gelina's for gals' nite... it was crazy and fun... till now they still wonder tat whether i am a virgin or not... OMG am i look so NOT INNOCENT??? but i am fine ya coz i hv da temptation to do it wahaha.... till 3 sth we finally use off our energy and have a good nite sleep..

---HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY KEONG---

This morning i went for a career fair in college... i was thinking i hv hope to get in LeMeridien for my internship but i hv get no chance as they are not goin to hired a trainee but a permanent staff and the sad case is tat they has jz only hired a new event co-cordinator... so bad luck ya.... hope i really can get a placement soon... i really scare tat i cant graduate coz of this stupid internship... Oh my lovely Lord.. pls gv me a helping hand... THANX LORD

I am finally bek to my lovely hometown since after my France trip... i really miss my home and the food in Malacca but sadly i need to go bek to KL on saturday.... so i cant fully satisfied my gastronomic temp ya... is ok coz i will be bek the following week which is my study week and come bek and eat ' KAU KAU' ... but still i hv eaten the most famous " WAN TAN MEE" today, it is heaven man.... feel like eating somemore

Now i nak pergi tengok TV lah... I miss my Astro too... CIAO!!!

2006-11-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

Baskin Robins

Today was seeking for someone to accompany me for this special moment dessert.... BASKINS ROBINS/// hehe 31st meh!!!

Finally i find my beloved fren Julee and Fanny... 3 of us has meet up in Pyramid around 8.30pm

We are so blur lah.... we shud order da take awaay one then only can get 31% discount....but we order each of us one 2 scoope cone and it cost us RM15.52.... and we hv get no discount.... WTH.... our main purpose has fly away coz of our BLURRRR.... heheh

PAISEI LAH KAWAN... i nvr think of tat, is ok ya we learn from lesson ya... next time we will hv another round of ice cream.... wahhaha

I hv order my favourite ... mint chocolate and chocolate mousse
Julee... rum raisins and low fat sth ( forgot liao)
Fanny.... cheese strawberry and chocolate mint

We enjoy our ice- cream.... chatting as usual like aunty.... da embarrasing thing is we hv mess up the table... coz da stupid cone keep leaking lah... is not our fault oso... hehe

After the ice cream gathering... we hv decided to go yam cha and we hv end up at Kim Gary...
I hv order coke v boilded ginger which to cure my shore throat
Julee... Ying Yong
Fanny.... Nai cha

Talking things tat happen in France... ecspecially the sad part which me n Fanny not really wanted to mention about anymore... but we are da best pal and we share everything together of course must tell Ju lah... hehe ( she said she need to be prepared for her trip )

Come to this topic about a guy which i has scold him b4... i hv ad forgot this thingy but sdnly Fanny has mention tat he still hate me and don wan to talk bout me...

I hv apologize to him bout y i scold him and tell him tat reason which i am so upset and i scolded him bad words... BUT in my thinking... guys are easy to adapt to bad words and i hv say SRY to him and he himself has tell me tat is ok....

but today i find out tat he still angry with me.... and i can tell myself tat...

I DON LIKE THIS GUY, HE IS NOT A REAL GUY.... I HATE A LADY HEART GUY, WAT SO EVER... IF U STILL HATE ME OR WAT.... I WANTED TO TELL U, U ARE A SUCKER OSO.... SO GO ASIDE N I DUNNO U