Something is going wrong to me!!!
I have been so long nvr blog.
So sry that i will start with a sad blog!!!
I have been so down down mood the last few days....
Me fell v someone who has gf....n we have done sth which is over our frenship
I am so so so deprive n mess now....
But thnx lord he has send alot of angels to me to warm my sadness....
to cool my emotion....I seriously hate myself of doin all this things......
I hate hate hate myself....but i cant tel anyone anymore as i told them i hv recover n wan to be as usual as I am...but it needs time...n now PMS...so my emotion is consider CRAZY....
I hate myself as I hv done sth i nvr think b4...especially da way he tell me tat I miss him in super confident way n it tells me tat he noes how much I miss him...Yes I miss him but he cant miss me...as for him is jz a temporary feels tat he wan to get from outside his gf world..
I hate myself as I alwaz tel my fren that i will not except a person to be the third party n now I am...though I pull back,... but da evil side of me still wish for sth to be happen...i am so cruel n selfish...I know
I hate myself... I cant really be tough when I come to watch the hong kong series,....I feel all the sentence n plot is all like reflecting my sin I hv done...I cant tolerate n I cry every single scene....
I hate myself though all the angels have send me msg to ask me forget him....but I still struggle on that...y cant i jz be awake...
I hate myself as I miss him so much and will think tat if he is thinking or missing me as well...n I noe tat it is impossible....
I feel myself is a like a cheap bitch.........I hate hate hate myself....ppl will tel me jz forget it n take it as a lesson or experience....but for me is hard as I nvr touch on love b4 n I fall for this time....
My fren tell me...in a person life time,...there is lots of passer by...maybe this is one of ur passer by in ur life,...n lord wan u to collect all the passer by pros n cons n one day he will send u a REAL LOVE in ur life....
LORD i pray for it LORD....I need ur support to make me stronger and able to handle the passer by
Thnx to my lord n my dear angels....
Thnx for listening to me
Please give me sometime n I will do my best to be back to normal...
I feeling better now ;-)
