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Been for a while nvr blog... coz i feel tat my day is almost da same

WORK... HOME.... WATCH SERIES.... SLEEP
wat a routine... so jz feel nth to blog up la!!!

I been smoking alot this few days... i dunno y... i think is da influnce of the office... but cant blame is myself don hv da will power to control myself... AM I A SMOKER? i also dunno coz i still can tahan wei!!! but don care lah.... jz do wateva i can do now.... LIFE IS SO SHORT!!!! wahaha

well!!! nowadays ppl around me keep talking bout DISSERTATION... but i haven start a shit oso... so i think i have to considered START it soon!!!!

CHRISTMAS is coming... da joyful day of da yr.... tot of not goin bek to hometown coz of an event... but hehe BLESS!!!! da job has cancel and i will be bek home on sat... MY LOVELY HOMETOWN I WILL BEK SOON YO!!!!

Seriously miss my home so much... even there is some conflict btw me n my family... but da joyful christmas and the bless of GOD... it will be recover with LOVE... so i am goin to celebrate da special day v my family

My sis has send me a msg asking me whether i am goin bek.... n i ask her Y??? she said she MISS ME... hehe i miss her oso lah..... actually i miss da food in malacca oso .... so this time go bek have to eat KAU KAU man .....

Well till here goin to bed... tmr kena wake up 6 sth for SenQ event in Mutiara Tesco.... good nite!!!

spinal hurt --- Another bday party

I hv slip down previous sunday in SS15 from the stairs, and i hv hurt my back v scar and on the same week thurs i hv drop down from the chair as it was too high and i cant sit on it.... WTH i hv been falling down ***4 times in this Nov ***... n finally i hv really.... seriously... hurt my spinal and my back bone has go crooked and da stupid bone has expand my hip broder and so i look FAT... so now i hv to go bek to sinsei and urut for few times to straigthen my back bone... besides my hands oso get effected as my spinal has enter air and start to be strenghtless now... the sensei oso tell me tat if i nvr take care... my two hands cannot raise up anymore....WAH memang like handicap lo... so i hv to find one more day to go bek malacca and urut again... i don wan to be orang cacat....

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Ytrd on the way bek from malacca was damn fun n crazy.... it was traffic jam all da way from seremban but we are not mad and we are like crazier in da car... dancing... laughing....singing.... joking and do alot stuff of stupid thingy... it was really sampat but HAPPY

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02 Dec 2006 ( Chinese birth date)
my parents has held a bday party for me in my favourite restaurant "valley hill" (sth like this forgot liao)... All my relatives from KL and S'pore has atend and i was so happy as I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH.... coz everytime when come to gathering we will really go crazy and enjoy maximum and we noe we love the moment we gathered together..... DONT CHA hehe

Me n my two cousins are the last one who arrive malacca as we need to work lo... when i arrive my house is full of ppl and i feel so shy as let them wait for me as well da party helds... wahaha but i am happy to see them there... THANS MY DAD, MOM, UNCLES, AUNTIES, SIS n BROS... oh ya n my two little niece n nephew...

as i nvr bring bek any baju so da theme has set as" casual jeans theme".... (but all my cousin and sis have go n buy and pick some nice clothes jz for my party... oh i am sry but casual alwaz my first priority lah) well we dress nice n simple tat nite.... JEANS N SHIRT my favourite...

My dad has book a room v three tables and a Karaoke stereo.... the food is delicious and superb so it is my favourite restaurant lah... hehe... during the dinner... we toast as usual... shout as loud as our lung can come out and we has bottoms up the Red wine... it was funny as my cousin John has really bottoms up the first glass and he gone HIGH ( wahaha... John y so blurrrrr......) while the second tosting we have really bottoms up... it was damn happy as this is first time i can really drink in front my parents.... wahaha
but the things tat really go funny is my niece Ashley.... she cried coz of our loud voice( she is too young and she is not use to da toasting ceremony which need to shout our lungs out... wahaha) .... she keep sayin " I DON LOVE U ALL ANYMORE" v her cute voice and adorable sad look... love her so much... after tat i has go n console n tell her tat is kind of wishing n hug her... ( cant tahan she is so adorable)....

Karaoke session
Well... as i am the bday gal tat nite... my relatives have inquiry me for the first song and i hv sing a song from S.H.E (tittle: tian hui) although it is a sad song but everyone enjoy coz they don understand (wahaha)... but is nice then ok lah... the whole session is damn extreme and amazing... we sing our love song from S.H.E to Jay Chou to Eason chan and lots....

time past fast to 10pm as the restaurant need to close so.....

Cutting cake session
My parents has bought a pure cheese cake which is homemade and cost RM110... the cake is really fantastic n i love it so much... THANX.... we sing bday song... we take pictures.... i make wish... i cut cake and tats the whole session of cutting cake.... after tat my eldest cousin has cheted on me which she ask me to take photos v her... when i stand beside her,... i only realise tat they hv bought party spray which for christmas party and spray on me kau kau.... my whole body is covered with the red string and snow... it was really surprise.... THANX AGAIN

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the whole dinner nite is really wonderful and i really appreciate for the preparation of my dad n my mom... THANK YOU SO MUCH.... we love the moment we gather together.... the spirit of gather is jz like alwaz v us and we cannot even leave without each other... WE ARE REALLY A FAMILY.... i really love my family so much.... we really have the SPIRIT OF LOVE it was really amazing and unbelievable the love tat surround us.... thanx LORD tat bless the love spirit in the FAMILY.... "hey couz.... when is out next gathere man.... cant wait for it yo!!!!"

supper time
8 of us.... of course the young cousins lah.... we hv come to one mamak for some " teh n mee" seriously kl better but we still enjoy coz GATHER again wahaha... talk n talk n talk..... laugh n laugh n laugh n we hv end da supper at 3 morning .... and reach home we jz sleep coz we are really exhausted since da morning till da late midnite.... but some of us still awake till 5 sth only sleep lah coz they are playin games and i showing my france pic to my cousin....

THANX SO MUCH TO MY PARENTS N MY BROTHER SISTER and THE RELATIVES which really gv me a great and magnific party tat day and thanc for the present u all hv given me... i really love it so much... "all are my dream ya".... wahaha

I AM SO BLESS..... MY 21st CELEBRATION IS REALLY A BOOM TO ME

p/s: will upload da photo asap...

Shhh...

I am so tired to talk v my parents nowadays.... Since the day i start my work in the HohShoes
I keep thinking whether i hv da rite placements or not... i really dunno

Da fucking is damn isolated... everytime when i wan to go for work or come bek from work i feel like crying... i feel myself so sad n helpless

Evey morning i need to take cab to my office and it cost me RM12 for a journey and if i cant get cab i will kena potong by the stupid cab in front of my condo and it will charge me fro RM20... WTF rite!!!!
n when it is time to go bek... i am start struggling to think whether it is a cab for me as there is too rural to get a cab as it is a housing area and no cab will enter unless CALL.... well CALL doesnt mean tat it will be a cab for u... so when come to no cab.... i really goin to cry coz i need to walk till da kelana jaya station for 25 mins to get a stupid cab... and now it cost me another RM12++ ( it is a pick time as everyone is goin home).... somemore there is damn isolated... there has lots of squarter which is aiming ur purse and snatch wateva they can... FUCK !!! this is da info i get from my senior

My dad ask me to ask them whether can get a car pool.... PLS !!! EVENT no such thing... they will go home at 8 or even start another meeting somewher till da late midnite.... how am i goin to follow them???

All the money i add up is mthly payment for a car? y don u jz gv me a car for convinnience and it will be ok to drive( no practice no improvement).... My mom is the one alwaz ruins everything ... i understand tat my dad is planning how to solve my probs and there is a possibility he will get me a car... but now comes to my mum... she alwaz ruin da plan.... ALWAZ... n when she talk to me i jz feel like ignore her.... sry to say tat but i really feel hatred sometimes

Is there a CARE when i get rape or i hv died coz of a car accident and u will noe wat is SAVE wat is NO!!!!! PLS lah is too late to be CARE!!! i hv my back hurt... it was so painful but i nvr tell them a single thing it will not works... they will jz ask me to apply some chinese medicine... so watsoeva no need to tell n i will take care myself....

My sis cal me today n i tell her tat i slip and hurt my backbone and goin for sinsei as my bek start to pain till my back bone nerve is suffer when i am sleeping... Now my mom cal me n ask how am i ... I really feel to tell i am not goin to die is ok .... but i nvr i still respect in answering her OKAY!!! and wateva she say to me i can only ans EMmmmm..... tats it feel so fake to talk to her sometimes

I feel myself kurang ajar but HOW!!!! sometimes i really feel sad when they are not in my situation but they make da decision for u..... when come da main idea n they refuse to gv u a good solution but jz ignore it.... n start to think of their own solution again which will not hv an ANSWER till da day end!!!!! WAT DA FUCK

OKAY !!!! till here... i think this is da damn angry blog i have ever write!!! maybe u al will think tat i am not appreciative or i am too demanding.... but come n see da place i train is totally disaster and i SCARE!!! now i will try to get another palcement

Thanx Gelina so much she keep trying to help me up in finding a better place for me.... no worries i wil think of it and gv an ideal ans to u ya.... Thanx again

I am using pink in my words coz i hate pink

21st PhOtos

the celebrator for my 21st
(part of it nia)
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Another bunch of celebrator
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Photo cacated v Tourism student n Jas
( Normal lah... we like to be cacat... wahaha)
NOe Y??? TOO PRETTY LIAO
ngek ngek ngek
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"WANTED"
HUI LING
** i oso dunno wat happen to her**
hehe but is interesting this photo
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Tercapture after my shower
(sexy tummy... wahaha)
ACTUALLY DAMN GELI
when u goin to leave me!!!!!
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I think they are sending gift for me
WAHAHA

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Another group photo again but still miss out someone
but is ok i think u all noe who are they
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UNWANTED GANG!!!!
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12 dingding...
My 21st bday cake, me and bunch of celebrator
THANX SO MUCH


21 st a unforgettable Bday v all the frens
Thanx again
LOVE
nic

21st...

23rd Nov... Unforgettable day

morning went to Maya hotel for interview... but FAIL again... during the way home i was cryin coz i feel tat i am damn unlucky to get a intern....

come to kl sentral... sitting alone in da McD... havin filet-O(been long time nvr eat since i come to kl) and nuggets... tot of eatin can release my unhappiness but NOPE... i was strugglin for 1 n half hour to finish my makanan... during my makan... i cal julee n talk to her my situation and i cried again...

come bek around 5 sth... chit chat v my bro... he keep telling me not be too demanding as i asking my dad to get me a car as if i work in event management i need it... my bro is harsh n i noe feeling good and sad tat sometimes feel tat my family cant understand wat am i thinking and they like only thinking their own way ( not da car thingy but others)... i cried again

WAT a Damn 21st rite... I cried 3 times in my bday.... is quite a sad day for me.... i was not in a good mood for da whole day... but at da nite i still havin a party in poppy... was up side down my feeling

Nite

Thanx so much to all my frens tat celebrate v me

I hv held my party in poppy... the hot and pack club... so Nadia has keep rushing me for reservation.... so i hv make it 10 days in advance... hehe

It was fun and enjoyable day for me.... but still feel sad tat some of my fren cannot attend da party... but most of them has attend... it was touch and happy

it was so lucky tat da nite is not pack n our ppl has concur da whole club... tat was great... me and Nadia as usual stand up da speaker and dance... but da damn bouncer jz halau us down and tell us tat it is not allow to stand on da speaker.... duhhh, havin fun mah like tat oso cannot...boooo

i suppose to drunk but i didnt... coz i oso dunno y... but i still in HIGH mode wahaha
dance for da whole nite... entertaining my frens for dancing... chating and all sort of thingy lah...Hosting no choice.... wahaha (so mean)

but at the end of da party.... they are two of my fren drunk.... one of then is my best fren julee
wahaha.... ju u need to practice lo... wahaha

around 3 sth... the day has end we hv follow cars n meet each other in Horus... da mamak... makan, chit chat and play aroud... it was crazy....

after the supper.... me, jasmine and brian sitted on the beanch near da swimming pool... coz really not feel like goin home and i missing someone oso... so i tell the two of them bout my feeling... n jas has send him a msg tat i wan to drink with him ask him whether wan to join or not... i was thinking she will not dare to do this kind of thing... but i am wrong.... she dare n she send and he patah balik coz he has on his way bek to his hs liao....

when i was so happen keep talking v other fren who last joining us happily.... when da time i raise my head up i see him.... n da two of them ask so u still wan to drink and ask the other fren of my as well.... but he refuse to drink as he need to work da next day... so in my mind tat time is" RUN" so i jz follow my fren go home lah.... i am so scare and i think is not da rite timing... jas has cal me and my half way bek n scold me no guts.... but jas i dunno y i am scare n not yet prepare... i was regret coz it is really a damn good moment to express but i nvr... maybe is not da rite guy... even i still got strong feeling but ... haiz " i am sampat"

SO my nite is jz PEACE n have nth BOOM or FANTASTIC happen

but anyhow it was a great day.... n unforgetful day

at last... need to thanx wei lynn for loosing her clubbing vaginity to me and keong my best pals thanx for helping in arranging and collecting da money..... thanx to my this two fren.... we are UNWANTED GANG FOREVER!!!! love y'all

HAPPY 21st BDAY TO MYSELF

My 21St Party

Been long time nvr blog... Firstly, i wanna thanx GOD for the wonderful arrangement...
The 22nd of Nov 2006, is my last semester 2 paper and the really last college exam paper.... and for the excuse of my 21st...i hv held a small gathering party in my place...

After the examination, it was around 3 sth... me, weilynn and jasmine went to pyramid to shop for the party stuff... walking around and around.... finish shopping and my stuff has finis buyin... so we have to go home and prepare for the party....

As my house does not have a proper stove to cook... me n weilynn has leave and went to jasmine house for cooking... during the preparation... i am so stress that so scare i cant handle da whole party... but luckily thanx so much tat wei lynn and jasmine is there... they help me up alot...
Me take care of the sphagetti, jasmine take care of the sandwiches and weilynn take care of the frying stuff... LYnn Lynn... u are a good cook ya.... wahaha

Time pass fast.... 8.30 pm is nearer but my house only got 4 guest which is hui ling, gelina, yanz and eliza which i have invite around 20+ ppl... i am so worried whether they are still coming or not!!! while i went down to buy ices... and the moment i reach home... keong and dennis was here... slowly my guest has jz follow da flow and reach my place... i am so proud of it coz i am the first time hosting party man... thanx fren for the support ya!!!!

My menu

1) Sphagetti with hot tuna
2) Pop-corn ( Chicken)
3) Nuggets
4) French Fries
5) Sandwiches
6) Pudding ( Thanx to Ivy for helping me with this dessert ya)
7) Nana De Coco and Longan ( End up we mix ivy's pudding with it, thats chun)
8) Dominoes ( aloha chicken and pepporoni beef)
9) My 21st Bday cake from frens

During the bday party, we are talkin n laughin... and i feel so happy when i see da situation as all my frens are mingle around and they take my place as their own home... the feeling was like " We Are Family"... Thanx so much my fren for attending my 21st

Today nite itself have one more party on in poppy which i hv invite more ppl than today as it is a farewell party... i hv held over my place is also bcoz some of my fren avoiding and strictly prohibited from clubbing... so sad.... but luckily da party is on in my place and we are havin fun n joy....

Okay... let say how they wish me happy bday lah
I was inside the kitchen cutting da pudding for my dessert... when the time i open my fridge the cake is still in the fridge.... while i am into my work tat time... i dunno who has take da cake without lettine me noe.... n keong come n ask me out... but when tat time i was thinking oh wanna take cake izzit, i noe in the fridge lah... so i go out... manatau da bday cake is ready there and they are singing happy bday song to me.... it was so touch and warm when they are givin me wishes...

WAH.... I AM 21st YA....I AM A BIG GAL.... BUT NOT OLD ... OKAY!!!! hehehe

I have a fun n joyfull bday party... thanx again my fren and this is our last day for college life....

LOVE U ALL.... AND MISS Y'ALL... TAKE GOOD CARE!!!

Well tmr still got party on... Hope it is fun and crazy nite...

FALL

ytrd the 12th Nov was Brian's bday, so happen he has invite us for KFC and LUK LUK for his celebration...
After the celebration, we have went to the nearest pub... FLAME
It was fine the earlier nite... and the big screen is showing the most famous 2 teams football game...' liverpool VS arsenal'... our gang there is playin 'bing bong a' and everyone is HIGH... i found myself is quite a slow motion person... coz when everytime they point at me n shouted 'bong' i will jz loose my mind and shouted 'a'.... so obviously i need to drink da Black Label tat place there...
Reaching 1130... some of my frenn has surrender and jz rest on the sofa and some went to da toilet to clear da stomach of liquor... me as well....

time pass fast 12am come.... music on.... dance move.... is my nite....
i am so HIGH... feel like standing on the podium... so a coincident... da podium is jz bek of the sofa we sitted and da screen is jz behind the podium....
as usual i has stand up to da podium and dance happily.... when lights blinking in da pub.... and some of the footbal fans shouted for goals.... me... trip n fal straight to the bar's table... n hallelujah ... dennis has safe mylife.... n keong safe the bar's table... n me myself has noe nth.... but the only thing in my mind is.... I AM FUCKING EMBARRASING... shit ass....n now... my knee is hurt and have a damn big bruises... it is painful when i walk on the stairs...sigh

OMG... think of it i feel so miserable.... i fall twice this yr since my clubbin life have started on the early 2004... and i cant imagine tat i fall.... and brian tell me" wah, clubber fall down, cant imagine".... oh i am so so so damn shamed.... I wish i wont fall again...ecspecially on my nite.... LOOK FORWARD FOR IT... and hope tat all my fren will attend...

BLESS ME!!!!

Moody day

Been few days i am so so so moody... I think is bcoz PMS and i feel tat everything tat happen beside me or on me which will easily make me feel frastrated and angry... I am sry fren tat i nvr mean it... is really my mood totally go down...

But sometimes i think bek... y i willl be like tat? i am so dissapointed coz when i really care bout someone... but they will jz leave me alone... it is a hard feeling to me... and i think i hv no high EQ

I told Nadia B4 tat i am so angry with someone coz she nvr ever think of me sometimes when i am really alone or i needed help... but she tell me... maybe i am an independent person so ppl out there will feel tat i can still survive when i am alone... YES i understand i will still survive but still i am so sad... i need attention sometimes but there is no attention on me... i only can make myself happy lah.. wat to do!!! ppl will think tat i got lots of fren... but NO!!! truly tell u...

I and hui ling no more close like last time... sometime i wonder!! frenship is jz like tat? when be with u longer time only can talk to u???when seldom see each other no more conversation??? when u with others u jz left me out!!! i am really fras... really... but i cant tell anyone... coz they will not stand by my side and jz tell me... aiya... now she no more same class v u mah, sure seldom talk lo.... but y? frenship really jz like tat? I am really tired of this kind of relationship i really feel inbalance and i pity myself sometimes... i really feel it... is kind of hard feeling...

I am listening to ' Tonight i Wanna Cry ' by Keith Urban... it is meanigful and my feeling now is totally exactly same as the lyrics but not bcoz of realationship v lover but frens.... when i listen to it i feel emo... haiz...

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
Theres pictures of you and I on the walls around me the way that it was and should have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Would it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

oOOo

Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Neway lifes still go on... sry for grumbling here bout my fren... it maybe coz of my atttitude and oso i cant control myself so my fren will leave me in short time sry for showing my fras here... but i feel tat only this blog is my best fren to talkbout anything tat is inbalance on me.... GOD N BLOG ALWAZ MY BEST FREN.... THANX FOR ACCOMPANY ME!!!

BACK

Yesterday the 1st of November... Keong invite me and my classmate for his bday party in V Garden Klang... There are 10 cars depart from Ridzuan... It is damn big event man...

Around 7.30pm we have reach klang... the first we see was " JUST MARRIED" so we start teasing him tat this is really his engagement or wedding party... wahaha so funny lah...

We have been teasing him since the day he invite us... coz it held in a restaurant and there are 5 tables for Taylor's student and other around 20 tables i think for his relatives and secondary classmate... it is a really huge Bday party

In the restaurant
We sing Happy Bday song to him... and toasting 'YAM SING" (it sound like wedding rite!!! hehe)
When he giving speech tat time... we all notice tat he was goin to cry coz his eyes is full of tears... Keong don lah so touch ya.... wahaha
But seriously... the food is good ya and we drink like HEAVEN wahaha...

His father and uncle were so funny keep asking us to drink and check on us whether we are drinking during the 'YAM SING' section on the stage...

KEONG U ASK UR RELATIVES TO BULLY US IZZIT??? COZ WE ALWAZ BULLY U IN THE CLASS... WAHAHA( joking nia )

We have end the party around 10 sth n we go bek one after another ... me and Jasmine has went to Gelina's for gals' nite... it was crazy and fun... till now they still wonder tat whether i am a virgin or not... OMG am i look so NOT INNOCENT??? but i am fine ya coz i hv da temptation to do it wahaha.... till 3 sth we finally use off our energy and have a good nite sleep..

---HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY KEONG---

This morning i went for a career fair in college... i was thinking i hv hope to get in LeMeridien for my internship but i hv get no chance as they are not goin to hired a trainee but a permanent staff and the sad case is tat they has jz only hired a new event co-cordinator... so bad luck ya.... hope i really can get a placement soon... i really scare tat i cant graduate coz of this stupid internship... Oh my lovely Lord.. pls gv me a helping hand... THANX LORD

I am finally bek to my lovely hometown since after my France trip... i really miss my home and the food in Malacca but sadly i need to go bek to KL on saturday.... so i cant fully satisfied my gastronomic temp ya... is ok coz i will be bek the following week which is my study week and come bek and eat ' KAU KAU' ... but still i hv eaten the most famous " WAN TAN MEE" today, it is heaven man.... feel like eating somemore

Now i nak pergi tengok TV lah... I miss my Astro too... CIAO!!!

Baskin Robins

Today was seeking for someone to accompany me for this special moment dessert.... BASKINS ROBINS/// hehe 31st meh!!!

Finally i find my beloved fren Julee and Fanny... 3 of us has meet up in Pyramid around 8.30pm

We are so blur lah.... we shud order da take awaay one then only can get 31% discount....but we order each of us one 2 scoope cone and it cost us RM15.52.... and we hv get no discount.... WTH.... our main purpose has fly away coz of our BLURRRR.... heheh

PAISEI LAH KAWAN... i nvr think of tat, is ok ya we learn from lesson ya... next time we will hv another round of ice cream.... wahhaha

I hv order my favourite ... mint chocolate and chocolate mousse
Julee... rum raisins and low fat sth ( forgot liao)
Fanny.... cheese strawberry and chocolate mint

We enjoy our ice- cream.... chatting as usual like aunty.... da embarrasing thing is we hv mess up the table... coz da stupid cone keep leaking lah... is not our fault oso... hehe

After the ice cream gathering... we hv decided to go yam cha and we hv end up at Kim Gary...
I hv order coke v boilded ginger which to cure my shore throat
Julee... Ying Yong
Fanny.... Nai cha

Talking things tat happen in France... ecspecially the sad part which me n Fanny not really wanted to mention about anymore... but we are da best pal and we share everything together of course must tell Ju lah... hehe ( she said she need to be prepared for her trip )

Come to this topic about a guy which i has scold him b4... i hv ad forgot this thingy but sdnly Fanny has mention tat he still hate me and don wan to talk bout me...

I hv apologize to him bout y i scold him and tell him tat reason which i am so upset and i scolded him bad words... BUT in my thinking... guys are easy to adapt to bad words and i hv say SRY to him and he himself has tell me tat is ok....

but today i find out tat he still angry with me.... and i can tell myself tat...

I DON LIKE THIS GUY, HE IS NOT A REAL GUY.... I HATE A LADY HEART GUY, WAT SO EVER... IF U STILL HATE ME OR WAT.... I WANTED TO TELL U, U ARE A SUCKER OSO.... SO GO ASIDE N I DUNNO U

My Day

Finally, i get my out fit which is from MNG... it is pearl white and it looks elegant... wahhaa

Some of frens say tat it looks nice to me and it is elegant as well... wahah i am so happy and for sure i am not regret i get tat outfit lah

Ytrd was nice and fun... some of my class mate went as well... they are so pretty and handsome which i seldom see they all dress up like ytrd...

Neway... it is a wonderful nite... after the party... me and some other guys went to Bar Savannh for an after party party... wahaha

I am good gal ytrd coz i nvr drink aclohol... coz i don like VODKA (hate it so much)... so i jz go there and enjoy the music and the environment...

I came bek from bar is around 4sth and FINALLY... i can sleep and i nvr wake up till the next day 4 sth afternoon... it is a wonderful nite for me coz i hv nvr sleep such a good sleep after my France trip

Today... quite a boring saturday.... no entertainment
i download a movie called ' The Banquet' and it is boring and sucks and damn damn slow and i am glad tat i finis watching....

My today nth special... but i have taken Tom Yam for my dinner and some tibits for my own self entertainment and satisfaction

TAT MY WEEKEND... SOUND BORING RITE!!!

Another sleepless day

I cant sleep for since my France trip... i ensure tat it is not bcoz of the jet lag but jz cant sleep... it is 4.26 A.M in the morning ... Jasmine n I plan to go Mid Valley for our last shoppin for D&D in the early morning 10 but i still awake....wonder whether can get up or not...sigh

I hope i can get a nice outfit for da D&D which theme is silver, gold and white... its hard to find ya

Today, me and Jasmine actually was searching for clothes in Mid Valley liao but well not enuf time... me n her saw an outfit in ZARA... OMG it is really fantastic and the price oso fantastic man.... but for sure i think Jas is goin to buy it tmr... coz she like it so much n it is nice on her as well...

Me leh has ad one in my mind ....FAT ASS... really scare not look nice on me and oso scare will wear da same outfit v others... Hope can get a really nice and look good on me one!!!

TRY MY BEST TO SLEEP YO

NITE NITE

Belated photos for Paintball

The Survivor of the War


WAR --- start!!!


The tension of the WAR 1

TENSION 2



TENSION 3



After WAR effect ( Fisch)

Paris --- Foix --- Toulouse --- Foix --- Paris---- MALAYSIA

I am happy i am back to my free land .... Malaysia

Today, the 26th of October 2006... suppose to hv a blog last Saturday which is the 21st of October 2006... the day i arrive Malaysia

Well, i am not that happy during my trip... but still i miss sth over there....

000 the weather ( cool and cool and cool ... tats wat i can say)

000 the environment ( green sea... i can only describe it... da grass is waving smoothly like the peaceful sea wave... try to imagine it man)

000 the buildings structure ( i love the sturucture and the color of the building.. it's narrow and brick brown color... alwazys my fantasy)

000 the pets around the street and their shits ( the pets are superb... u cant see it in Malaysia... they are huge but friendly... love it so much)

000 the open air street coffee house ( it is really fantastic... like i am in a movie... wahaha)

Overall... the scenery, the environment are da most memorable thing tat i miss the most... the things which happen over there... i am not goin to think of it and i will forget it forever.... tats my promise to myself

On the day itself which i arrive... one of my close fren msn me but i nvr reply as i hv sleep da whole day and wanted to refresh myself....

The third day.... she msn me again... apologise to me about wat has happen in France... i hv forgiven her.... but on the other hand i feel quite dissapointed and sad to myself.... i nvr tell her my feeling during our conversation but i jz tel her tat it is okay n i understand who is she...

anyhow i will still be the one alwaz be v u when u need me... don worry it is hard feeling to me for a short while... but if i noe u i will understand da inner part of u.... NO WORRIES K!!!

i am sad when u tell me tat i really irritated u ... but really don worry... i accept ur apology and i noe who r u... i will be there alwaz for u when u need me, don feel hesitated when u need help.... to others frens as well....
I alwazys appreciate u all coz u all accompany me for all my lonely life... Thanx so much

Well... there still lots of pics i haven post yet so wait for it y'all

Au Revoir

Ytrd and Today

Ytrd in the early morning, i open my blogger and get some comment from someone who i dunno.... Anyway thanx much for ur advice....

Went to church... it has been months i nvr go... and today's msg was useful and meaningful which that i did with my last two blogs... GRUMBLE

I keep complaining that i was lonely and no loves... but actually after that msg i realize tat i am not tat sad or lonely but i shud bless that my frens are around me... even they are not...but it is becoz everyone has their own space and others entertainment... i shudnt be so greedy to get my frens 24 hr attention and it is selfish too... y shud i grumble v this small situation n make myself feel so pityful... it is jz self pity... SO NICOLE STOP GRUMBLE THAT NO FREN ACCOMPANY... u shud be bless that u hv frens' care n love.... THANK YOU FRENS... I APPRECIATE ALL THE WHILE U ALL WITH ME

Today

Jz came bek from Janice's place early in the morning.... think who i met??? wahaha the lecturer who alwaz avoid from meeting students.... WONG KUM KIT.... wahaha, he is so funny coz he is carrying a green small sling bag and wearing smart formal clothes( try to imagine ppl out there)

Today nite 11.35 pm i will be depart to FRANCE---- PARIS.... Bonjour, Je parle Anglais. Je ne parle pas Francais, Je suis desole.... wahaha... Anyway i will be there tmr morning ( france time) 6.30AM....

I am havin mix feeling... i cant really think of it... i am kind of scare about the trip....NO FUN??? hope not man.... but GOD BLESS ME and MY FRENS .....

**ENJOY FRANCE TRIP**

Packing... dddddddddddd

SATURDAY NITE

I feel so lonely today

Even saturday nite, i am alone

No frens accompany but only myself

<CRIED>

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I am not myslef
Anymore

Love... NOT ME

I am looser again....

Come to LOVE.... i alwaz the slowest

When i have feeling or in love

He is no more available

Am i bound to be LONELY for my whole life

SAD....

INTERVIEW ....... ANTS

Today a bad and hazy day.... i wake up in the early morning to prepare my interview in THE HOT SHOE SHOW CO.

I am so nervous and worry.. I reach there an hour earlier so i seated on a red brick pot which is big and outside of the company to wait the time reach 10am.... When i seated there for a while i feel that my waist is itchy when i found out... it is a stupid RED BIG ANTS biting me.... fuck it.... for a while after, i feel damn itchy and painful.... but i nvr care for it and soon is 10am....

I enter into the company as usual there is damn chun can say... i feel stress " fiiiuuu", the design is like a night club... sound system around, red and white theme ...OMG.... i have lead to a meeting room which is so huge and full of smoke smell.... wah it seems so STRESS.... so i fill in the internship form inside the room and waited the HR to interview me.... when i see her.... she is damn modern and the way she dress is ike goin to club... WTH is really casual to work in event company, i feel myself like older than them 100 yrs....

During the interview....

My feeling at then moment is stress and nervous.... i cant even think of wat she ask me now and i cant even answer a good answer... i can 100% sure that i am fail....coz she talk more than me and telling me that i am still blur that wat is EVENT MNGT... is tru i am still blur..... this is my fault as during the class i nvr pay attention... she telling me a lot about wat is event, and it is not only entertainment or coordinating... is producing and creating.... (WTH how i noe it is my first time step into an event company lah)... at the end of the interview, she asking me did i smoke... obviously not (but occasionlly lah... hehe). then she ask me do i mind working in a smoking environment... obviously not, after she ask me did i drink, i said "YES" and ask me whether i drunk b4 and wa wil i do after i drunk and my ans is YES and SLEEP.... then she tell me tat if u cant drink better hide urself coz firstly is me as a student safety ( this is accepted ).... n secondly to avoid the student to embarras the company ( WTH.... i think i maybe a good drinker than u wei...) but anyway i think i am not accepted.... and she ask me to cal her after my France trip... is quite confuse that shud i proceed to find one more hotel or wait for it ( but my dad say i shud proceed on so i did )

Come bek from interview is around 12 sth... i am so damn tired and i went to bed for a nap till 3 sth and Fanny msn me and tell me tat she is goin to Pyramid and i hv join her.... We go for KFC and serach some present for her friends.... when makaning KFC i found my waist which da damn ants bite is SWOLLEN and when i look at it OMG IT IS RED WITH A LITTLE ROUND SCARE AND IT LOOKS WEIRD.... oh i am desperate now... my mind start thinking whether i will jz DIE bcoz of this bite... coz nowadays lots of ppl kena sth bite then will die for no reason.... (i am so scare i die leh) this is wat come into my mind first.... coz i haven pak tor.... haven go FRANCE ... so wasted leh.... if tmr haven cure i think i need a doctor....

F*** YOU ANTS

this is the scar
doesnt it looks weird and reddish... **YUCKS**

Another take of the scare... i am wonder how a small ants do it???
HOW IT DO IT???

I am headed...i feel so sick with the weather it makes ppl dizzy and uncomfortable.....

**NEED A ERALIER REST.... GOOD NIGHT**

YUMMY YUMMY.... TGIF

After college i have come bek to hv a good nap as i slept 5 sth last nite, is damn exhausted...

Around 6.32pm Julee, she was so smart.... coz she cant get me on msn so she called n wake me up, well i'm famous sleeping pig to all of my fren... wahaha

Using an hour to prepare myself.... Around 7pm, me, Jasmin and the bday gal--- FANNY hv depart to TGIF subang parade.... when we arrive it was fully book so we need to wait there for 15 mins.... so we decided to go hang around the mall....

Tik..Tok..Tik..Tok 15 mins past

Here we Are >>>>> TGIFriday's

We hv seated by the lead of our waitress and start ordering our food.... the waitress is freindly... during the food order... i sdnly think of that TGIF will hv a damn chun performance for the Bday's ... so i ask the waitress to hv a special performance for Fanny(she still blur at the moment) hehe

After ordering the food....

Well photo shooting is on.... hehe

<----- Julee and Fanny

Jasmine and Me--- Nicole----->




For sure IDIOT face will not left out in our memorable photo album

Me v PIG NOSE..... BOOOOOO

Julee v SEXY LICKABLE tongue.... hehe

Food, beverage and appertizer for the day.... don't u notice left out one beverage... is not we cheapskate for ordering 3 cups for 4 but our photographer has miss out .....Duhhhhhh

Food has NO long life and it has destroyed by us.... the human being
but still presentable.... wahaha


Our group photo is damn hard to capture.....
Y??
coz my fren out there is damn fussy and concious of their chubby face and the stretchy tummy
(GALZZZZZ)



Here we comethe bday gal---- Fanny v the present we gave her
(LIKE A STAR *** blink blink***.... said Julee)

We are having fun during the dinner... coz we notice a damn good looking guy serving in the restaurant... well i am not tat interested lah.... wahaha, i did video the performance part when the waitress and waiter singing celebration song for Fanny but is sad tat here i cant post up... Wu~~~

TGIF is a nice place to celebrate bday... it has good services and it provide cake as well tats good man
( COMMERCIAL LINE).... hehe

HAPPY BDAY FANNY

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When i am posting the pictures, i also go n review for others pictures that i have took last yr the same day but was celebrating with the other fren --- Cindy... When i see da pics it loads of memory on my mind.. it is fun and sad as well... coz we r not close anymore as she got a bf... it is unfair to me coz i got the feeling tat she go close to me is bcoz she want to hook up with the guy who use to be my "so called" best fren after he break up with his previous ex.... y i said "so called"coz we are no more friendship now.... is he using me when he is alone? is he coz of needed a fren only fren v me?.... i hv no ans only this two will noe themselves... think it back they are selfish and they make me sad and dissapointed... So better don think of it coz is not worth to make me moody to think of the two

This blog has take me two days to finish it... it is a tired construction wahaha... coz i have waited the pics from my fren and jz post half way ytrd nite and now FINALLY ...... FINISHED

Pyramid --- Raining Day

Tmr is Fanny's bday , so me n Jasmine have decided to go pyramid to get her some present
B4 goin i got sth to get for her in my mind which is da earing tat Rainie Yang wear in the drama names " Devils beside me " which i am wearing now.... hehe, n i called Julee to tell her tat our dinner will be held in TGIF.... so she suggested to get her a panty.... so now we got two choices


My new earing which looks like navel ring
(but it is not la)




I spent an hour to poke this earing into my ear hole ( is painful)


Then hop into a cab... when reach pyramid go around n around... but cannot get da earing (SAD)
So, we go to the lingerie shop to get her a sexy T- back or G-string, but manatau pun tak ada lah... OH MY GOD.... PYRAMID LEH!!!!!!

So, we go into SOX WORLD coz Jasmine need to get some socks for her France trip ( but at the end she nvr get one) but we saw a set of winter scarf and cap.... it is pink ( Fanny's favourite).... we standing there, investigate it, discussing whether want to buy it or not.... but Jasmie come out a decision tel me tat " Y not we try to look for others, then come bek to get it if really cant get anything" .... " OK " .... so we go around and around again....

F.O.S ( lots of socks hanging there)

" come, go n look for some socks"
" K ... ( touching da socks) Erm.... this not bad ya, can keep warm leh"
" ya, not bad, better than jz now wat we see in the other shop" ( start touching n choosing)

So suppose to get Fanny's present, but we jz start hang around in da shop ( Well, GALS.... wahaha) start trying clothes and pants.... i nvr get anything but Jas did... Since time past so fast so we decided to get da set of winter scarf n cap for Fanny lo... easy n useful for her france trip oso.. hope she like it

Well... i oso get a baju for clubbing in French Blues la.... coz i run out of clubbing clothes...wahaha
i think is quite old for me.... but Jas said is ok oh coz inside da club siapa nak tengok??? hehe tru oso lah....

So we go to Giant to get some stuff for France trip again.... so excited ... from da day i start purchasing France trip thingy i think i spend around RM 80 for food and RM 400+ for my stupid long sleeves clothes ( coz i nvr wear long sleeve so got to buy ) and other stuff...
So.... we buy maggie mee ( when i see the mees my stomach is protesting coz it is hungry liao)...
n i suggested to eat sth b4 go home.... After the aunty shopping we went to Kim Gary....

In Kim Gary

Come to a topic about frenship think of Fanny and Julee, this two of my fren are my precious and we spent lots of cherrished moment together ... We noe each other went da day i step in the college.... Hwai Hwai is another one who appear in my mind... i feel so wasted tat me n her frenship jz end bcoz i got conflict v her bf.... i am sad and she is to weak to handle LOVE thingy i damn scare she will kena bully by her bf... ( don ever bully her.... if not i will wack u till cacated).... but still wish them FOREVER LOVE

Sdnly.... Jas ask me hv i ever think of who i wan to have sex with... so i jz tell her tat i only think of one guy... whoever noe me u will noe lah.... hehe
then she ask "no others? "... ( Thinking seriously ) wah our college really don hv a guy attract me man... WTH so sad case.... she oso tell me tat if she need some happiness she oso cant think of anyone in the college... so so so poor lah.... LENG CHAIs WHERE ARE U ?????
Time past fast, goin to 12 mid nite... so we decided to ciao earlier so can pay less for the cab.... when we step out from K.Gary it was pouring heavily OMG is really heavy one.... so we went to the taxi counter and it charge us RM7.50 ( When i see da clock is 12.03am) foooun...

In Ridzuan

WTH.... when we step out from the cab... the rain is pouring towards me and Jas... and i am wet n the water is leaking from my hair ... da corridoor was covered with water.... i am wet and is in a damn sorry figure... my hair wet.... half of my body wet and the plastic bag i holding is wet..... i come to blk C to get my book from one of my fren... when come down n walk out from the lift... the way to my own blk is really diasater.... da corridoor covered v water and i am wondering whether i need to walk thru or not but i make my decision to walk if not i will freeze n get sick.... run along the corridoor...... when i reach my blk.....

WTF..... the rain is not pouring but is like sprinkling the flowers with a strong paip water... keep sprinkle on me so i hide inside the mail box corridor which is peaceful and without water n CLEAR.... thinking again shud i go n press da lift button.... when da moment i see da rain i am so scare to fight with and the wind ... the wind like blowing me away i cant stand still... but i am so cold and like a drenched chicken... so brace myself to fight v the rain... but luckily tats one of the lift at groundfloor... so i jz get in the lift n finally i am home... wah now think of it i am like fighting v the rain man..... I AM THE CHAMPION though... hehe

i am wet and get a warm shower.... when i come out i start sneezing and running nose... and get some pill... but i am fine now... hehe

Is 3.39 AM in the morning.... so need to sleep lo

Adios