In Malacca

I hv found out that when i am in Malacca i am useless
I don't hv strength or inspiration to move my butt for anything

tot of finding some placement for my internship but it seems zero " weik weik "
while, besides this placement. i oso need to think of my DISSERTATION TOPIC
WTH... suppose hv an idea in thousand yrs ago but i manage to change a topic which is not tat difficult for me on finding information..... so my mind still HANGING " dingggggg dinggggggg "

Last thursday, Nadia, Kristi, Winda n Jasmine come over to my lovely hometown ---- Malacca
We hv a 2 nites stay in Century Mahkota Resort... It is a lovely place... when the time i step in i think of my high school life...Y ??? hehe...

i am in a dancing association for 6 yrs... n there's will be a so called CONCERT every yr in my high school as a celebration for the school anniversary... so evry time when after da concert we hv a stay or gastronimic satisfaction in a hotel for our complimentary....

So i still remember tat it was my 1st yr in da association.... we hv come to this hotel as i mention jz now for a one nite stay... It was fine n i was new like a blur sotong... alwaz follow da senior from here to there.... During the nite, we all sitting together in the room and start talking bout GHOST STORY ( i was so scared but i like to listen .... torturing myself nia) around 20 of us siting on the bed and covered v blanket, holding each others hand to release the fear... So Siao
till the early morning around 6 we went to the jetty ( now has dissapear and cover v some shit thing which wasting our's money) for sunrise.... the senior has tell us tat it was too early for it so we hv decided to go bek to da bed room..... end up we nvr wait for the sunrise

COME BEK FROM PAST

wah... everytime i think of the past... i really hv the feeling which has really telling me that i am still young.... wahaha.... i am young though but is not young as past.....
When we are young... we hope to grow up fast to be a success woman and has alot alot of money to handle everything.... when we young it seems so easy to be an adult.... it seems life is so wonderful if u r an adult...but " no no "
But now i am considered a half adult.... but i hope tat i will not grown up so fast and be still like a baby... no need to worry anything..... but i noe tat life cannot be rewind... so still need to go ahead.. is kind of contradiction

now i was watching an old school movie name" Richie Rich " it was a damn luxurious lifestyle i hv ever seen in my life.... McD in the house... Roller Coaster in the garden... Personal plane... wah if i am the Richie wat will i be thinking, cos he has to continues his fathers's business when he still a 12 yr old boy... he has no chance to hang around or be a mischievous boy like other same age children.... it still the matter of pros n cons.... so be a normal person better lah.... wahaha

Life is full of difficulty... whoever u r... watever u are u still meet all the complication of lifes.... as chinese we said human is " fan ren " .... so we need to be " fan " for our entire life .... so we jz do our best lah.... it is more happy to get sth that u work hard for it..... yo yo yo ..... life still wonderful without lots of money

..... ZZZZZZZzzzz.......

PAINTBALL... GOOD GAME

B4 the holiday, Christopher and Kevin Woon have organise a chun game --- PAINTBALL and it has held on today MONDAY

Early in the morning 1030 we have meet downstair Ridzuan (as it is the best destination to meet with everyone.. hehe), there are almost 10 cars depart from Ridzuan ... wat a huge group man... like havin wedding like tat arhhh....
when we arrive, the organizer haven prepared our games yet... so we hv waited there for almost 2 n half hours...normally for me fire is on as i hate waiting .... but luckily Chu Yee has suggest some game " BIG WIND BLOW"

so we stand in a big circle(BC) which got small circle for each of us and middle has one " LOOSER (L) " who standing inside and who is standing in da circle has to ask he/she wat shud he/she wan to blow.... Eg: (L) : BIG WIND BLOW.... (BC): BLOW WAT???.....(L): BLOW THOSE WHO WEARING PANTIES....

then all of us who is standin in da small circle need to run to other's circle... whoever cant get the small circle will be the LOOSER and game continuesly playin.... DOESNT IT CHILDISH??? BUT WE ENJOY coz it is a good game to gather everyone and play v fun and for sure release bored....wahaha

1230pm.... game started.... 40 of us has seperate into 4 groups and i was under Woon's group who called by others " THE GENERAL" wah i am lucky as i am in a GENERAL group man... though i am under Dennis who is also a damn good player... RESPECT

We play three matches but battle with different groups... first round we r da winner so we hv a game v another winner group.... but this time we lost liao..... there's a third game coming up.... n we win as we has still left two members in da WAR.... i was hurt this time my hand bruise with blood and my finger nail is break n bruise as well.... but doesnt matter coz it is really fun ya....

I love this game... it really brings us to noe each other better and it is a good moment for us to gather together though it is like a WAR GAME.... but for us we are so enjoy and full of fun time v others classmate who maybe seldom talk in da class.... from the game we can really see da SUPERWOMAN who is weilynn and pitxiang... they are damn daring to get to other party range to get the FLAG.... RESPECT again

I will nvr forget this FINAL GAME for our BD17 though maybe got other game comin up... well,it is the first time we all really gather together for almost the half day... make us become closer n closer.....is really memorable

The End....I will publish da photo as soon ya...

Goin Kim Gary... *Pooooooh** Disappear

Sunday , 17September2006, 2.08AM

Sat sth has happen, i found out tat i still cant forget him, still have da strong strong feeling v him, it is hard to explain y.... but he is damn mother fucker to me.... Y??? coz he ruin my life... i hate those ppl i like coz they make me like a stupid idiot n hard to be myself...

I am sad as i tot i will feel nth to him after he broke up v his ex... but is not i still have a damn strong feeling towards him... i like him, i cant control myself... even all my fren tellin me tat he is damn ugly... he is damn disgusting.... but still feel tat he is da one i like

Was chatting with Jasmine ytrd nite after clubbing

" Dont worry , u can get ur Mr RIGHT soon ya", " but i am not waiting for Mr RIGHT and i am not depress till i need a bf to stay n be v me... but my mind jz tellin me tat i like him... wan to be v him.... when we dance together n he hug me, i can feel tat my blood circulated v happiness and i feel i am so lady when i with him.... ", "ya... i understand, even i am consolling u, i myself oso facing this kind of probs.... so we jz GAMBATE ya", " ya i think i really need to be myself... thanx"

Ytrd is a damn hurting nite to me and Nadia as well... but i think we r strong to handle though still feel upset... NADIA, GAMBATEH YA....after clubbing she came to my house n sleep
In the afternoon we went to Kim Gary ( Nadia don like this place but she suggested... so jz go lah).... we makan there chit chat there... but she seems no appettide and she has stop.... but i jz finis my food as Kim Gary is one of my belove restaurant wahaha, so i sure wont waste da food la

After lunch, i suggested to go to Nadia's hs as she looks down n moody so better go n teman her to help her avoid from thinkin sadness.... Jasmine has told me tat she will not be alone at home coz she will oso think of her sadness.... so the three of us has come to Nadia's..... WAT A ONLY LONELY SADDY DESPERATE YOUNGSTER.... sigh

We been chit chat there and play piano and discuss bout wat we hv learn last time... is so fun but we have wasted our's parents love and we give up on learning those thingy as we feel tat it is quite of boring... but i wish i can be continue my piano lesson after my studies... hehehe

We cook spaghetti and mushoom soup... i was worry as beenlong time nvr cook... but it has come out agood result wahaha... tats was fun, suppose to wait for chic wern to join us for dinner but at the end he nvr turn up and Nadia has to send us bek.... i ask her to stay here since tmr she need to meet up her classmate which is also stayin in Ridzuan ( wah really ur second hs man... wahaha) ... fail to wait for chic wern so we take our time n wach 2 episode og One Tree Hill which is quite nice when during da episode three... so this holiday plan to watch tit finis....

Need to get to bed n hope tmr's paintball is a BOM.... yeah

NITES....