Sunday , 17September2006, 2.08AM

Sat sth has happen, i found out tat i still cant forget him, still have da strong strong feeling v him, it is hard to explain y.... but he is damn mother fucker to me.... Y??? coz he ruin my life... i hate those ppl i like coz they make me like a stupid idiot n hard to be myself...

I am sad as i tot i will feel nth to him after he broke up v his ex... but is not i still have a damn strong feeling towards him... i like him, i cant control myself... even all my fren tellin me tat he is damn ugly... he is damn disgusting.... but still feel tat he is da one i like

Was chatting with Jasmine ytrd nite after clubbing

" Dont worry , u can get ur Mr RIGHT soon ya", " but i am not waiting for Mr RIGHT and i am not depress till i need a bf to stay n be v me... but my mind jz tellin me tat i like him... wan to be v him.... when we dance together n he hug me, i can feel tat my blood circulated v happiness and i feel i am so lady when i with him.... ", "ya... i understand, even i am consolling u, i myself oso facing this kind of probs.... so we jz GAMBATE ya", " ya i think i really need to be myself... thanx"

Ytrd is a damn hurting nite to me and Nadia as well... but i think we r strong to handle though still feel upset... NADIA, GAMBATEH YA....after clubbing she came to my house n sleep
In the afternoon we went to Kim Gary ( Nadia don like this place but she suggested... so jz go lah).... we makan there chit chat there... but she seems no appettide and she has stop.... but i jz finis my food as Kim Gary is one of my belove restaurant wahaha, so i sure wont waste da food la

After lunch, i suggested to go to Nadia's hs as she looks down n moody so better go n teman her to help her avoid from thinkin sadness.... Jasmine has told me tat she will not be alone at home coz she will oso think of her sadness.... so the three of us has come to Nadia's..... WAT A ONLY LONELY SADDY DESPERATE YOUNGSTER.... sigh

We been chit chat there and play piano and discuss bout wat we hv learn last time... is so fun but we have wasted our's parents love and we give up on learning those thingy as we feel tat it is quite of boring... but i wish i can be continue my piano lesson after my studies... hehehe

We cook spaghetti and mushoom soup... i was worry as beenlong time nvr cook... but it has come out agood result wahaha... tats was fun, suppose to wait for chic wern to join us for dinner but at the end he nvr turn up and Nadia has to send us bek.... i ask her to stay here since tmr she need to meet up her classmate which is also stayin in Ridzuan ( wah really ur second hs man... wahaha) ... fail to wait for chic wern so we take our time n wach 2 episode og One Tree Hill which is quite nice when during da episode three... so this holiday plan to watch tit finis....

Need to get to bed n hope tmr's paintball is a BOM.... yeah

NITES....